hindi ko alam kung may kinalaman ba yung sinabi na yun ni Doraemon sa magiging laman ng post kong ito.
ngayon, isang mahalagang tao ang pumanaw - si Rudy Fernandez na mas kilala sa tawag na 'Daboy'.
whew! hindi ko alam kung paano sisimulan. ang sakit. hindi ko man sila kamag-anak pero ramdam ko ang dalamhati ng mga naiwan niya. kung ako nga na isang hamak na manonood lamang, ganun na lang ang iyak at lungkot, paano pa kaya sila?
why am i so affected? well, i'm one of the many people who have been praying for him and his family. since i heard of his condition, he has always been in my prayers. i don't know him personally, hindi ko pa siya nakikita nang personal, but he has touched my life in ways i never imagined. this man had a great impact on me. and i am deeply saddened by this unexpected moment - his untimely death. i admire him for being such a brave man. and i admire Lorna even more for her limitless, unconditional love for her husband. ibang klase siyang babae, the kind of woman i would like to become. despite the so many challenges that they faced in line with Rudy's sickness, she remained strong, calm, and positive. pinili niyang maging matatag. sabi ni Manay Lolit Solis, sa banyo lang daw umiiyak si Lorna dahil ayaw niyang makita ni Rudy na nahihirapan siya. syempre nga naman, manghihina at madedepress din si Daboy pag nakita niyang umiiyak si Lorna. ganun din kame dati nung nagkasakit si Papa. ganun din kame nung si Mama naman ang nagkasakit. at ganun din ako sa mga panahong gusto ko ng sumuko. Rudy Fernandez has inspired me a lot - his life, his family, and the way he handled his condition. some reflections lang. it's nice to know that there are certain people who are willing to and will really stay with you until your last breath. sa case ni Daboy, Sen. Jinggoy was there. na-late ng 5 minutes si Sen. Bong pero dumating din siya. Daboy had three best friends who have been with him since day 1 - Sen. Jinggoy, Sen. Bong, and Philip Salvador. naisip ko lang, sken kaya, sino-sino yung makakasama ko sa huling hininga ko? bilib ako sa friendship nilang apat. wala akong masabi. now i'm asking myself, who would be the three people who would be with me until the end? maliban kay mama, kay papa, at kay arnold? hmm.. my daughters? their dad? i don't know. i am happy for Daboy and for Lorna for having true friends who have been present to support and comfort them. i heard from Butch Francisco that one of Lorna's best friends came straight from Canada. nakakatuwang malaman na may mga taong ganun, yung talagang hindi ka iiwan sa ere. hay. sa buhay kasi natin ngayon, swerte ng makahanap ka ng isang taong kayang itaya ang sarili niyang buhay para sayo. lam niyo yun, we're living in a very competitive world, matira ang matibay, survival of the fittest ang drama. kaya ang hirap ding magtiwala, hindi mo alam kung sino talaga yung maaasahan mo. kaya mas mabuti pang wag nang umasa at lumaban na lang mag-isa. kung may darating na tulong, mabuti, kung wala naman, ayos lang din. pero sa case nina Daboy at LT, ang laban nila ay naging laban na rin ng maraming taong nagmamahal at sumusuporta sa kanila. at dahil dun, masaya ako para sa kanila.
bilib din ako sa tibay ng pagmamahalan ng mag-asawang Fernandez. perfect example sila of a couple who has been true to their promise to stay together in sickness and in health, for richer or for poorer, til death do they part. iba! astig! i salute them. and LT, she's one example of an excellent wife, as described in Proverbs 12:4 (An excellent wife is the crown of her husband.). she has shown a different kind of strength. i pray na maging inspirasyon din sila sa maraming couples ngayon. na ang tunay na pagmamahal, walang time limit, walang expiration date, walang condition. na kahit ano pang mangyari, mananatili kayong nasa tabi ng isa't isa. hindi dahil sa responsibilidad niyo yun, kundi dahil yun ang sinumpaan niyo. vows are not just words, along with the words comes commitment, and please, don't ever promise anything kung hindi niyo pa alam ang ibig sabihin ng salitang commitment, at kung hindi pa kayo ready. i believe this song perfectly suits Daboy and Lorna's love story and i hope mine too.. someday.. pangako hindi kita iiwan.. pangako 'di ko pababayaan.. pangako hindi ka na mag-iisa.. pangakong magmula ngayo'y tayong dalawa ang magkasama..
lastly, i watched Butch Francisco's interview with Merle Fernandez, Daboy's older sister. more than grief, more than sadness, she's feeling hatred/anger. sabi niya nakakagalit daw yung sinasabi ng mga taong, "kalooban ito ng Diyos" (this is God's will). sabi rin niya, parang hindi raw Christian ang pananalita niya pero yun ang kanyang sentimiento, hindi kalooban ng Diyos ang pagkawala ni Rudy. and personally, i understand her. i know the feeling. i've lost a lot of my loved ones already - 2 brothers, my dearest lolo, uncles, aunts, lolas and several family friends. at ilang ulit ko na ring natanong kung will nga ba ni Lord ang mga bagay-bagay. but you know what, i have come to realize that indeed, God does not waste a hurt. and really, everything happens for a reason. masakit kung sa masakit. lalo na kung mahal mo sa buhay ang nawala. pero in time, maiintindihan din naten lahat. we could ask, kailan ba nagiging kalooban ng Diyos ang pagkawala ng isang mabuting tao? tayo lang din ang makakasagot niyan. kay Daboy, isipin na lang naten na kapiling na niya ang Diyos, at hindi na siya mahihirapan pa. matagal na raw niyang sinasabing masakit at napapagod na siya. ngayon, we can be sure that he's no longer in pain. makakapagpahinga na siya. may isa lang akong napansin sa mga sinabi ni Ms. Merle. nabanggit kasi niya na si Rudy daw ang sentro ng buhay niya at kay Rudy umiikot ang mundo niya. i remember what Arun Gogna said in his book Happy Secrets to an Obedient Life, God gave us the first commandment, that is to have no other gods besides Him, because He loves us so much. i would like to quote: The Lord wants to be above everyone and everything in our lives because whatever happens, come hail or high water, tsunami or earthquake, He'll never leave us or forsake us. We will never be alone... we make God our top priority and the absolute center of our lives. All the other persons, things and aspects of our beings have to take their rightful places around Him. When He's the center, everything else falls into their perfect place. naalala ko lang. pero hindi ko rin masisi si Ms. Merle na ganun na lang ang hinanakit niya. kahit naman ako e. that's how it is when you're in deep pain and when you do not expect the things that happen. pinagdaanan ko na rin yan. just last year i lost someone i loved deeply, someone i thought i was going to spend the rest of my life with. yun nga lang, pinili niyang magmahal ng iba. it was something i did not expect and i must admit, i was never prepared for it. ang dami ko ring tanong nun pero yun nga, little by little ni-reveal naman ni God kung bakit e. syempre eto namang si satan, pilit binabaluktot ang tama at pilit akong sinasaktan. pero he'll never win.
enough of me. this isn't supposed to be about me. anyway, again, my condolences to the Fernandez family. i'll continue to pray for Daboy, LT, and their family and friends.
"Mama, I love you." these were Rudy's last words for his wife. such sweet words that LT would definitely treasure for the rest of her life. with that, i end this post.
Mr. Rudy Fernandez, my prayers are with you. Go peacefully.
06.07.08
20:28
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