let it burn...

i'm twisted.. 'cause one side of me is telling me that i need to move on, on the other side, i wanna break down and cry.. i'm twisted.. 'cause i want to be happy for them but i just can't.. i'm twisted.. 'cause i wanna do something but my mind tells me that it's wrong.. i'm twisted.. 'cause i wanna hate them, i wanna be indifferent.. but at the end of each day, i still end up loving them all the more.. i'm twisted.. 'cause i want things to be as simple as they could be, but everything seems complicated.. i'm twisted.. but i am at peace.. knowing that i have God! see how twisted my life is?

haha.. nonsense post.. but nonsense as it is, at least it's for real.. and it's as honest as i could possibly feel..

sem break na..

sana.. technically, sem break na talaga.. but i'm not on a break yet.. i still have to do certain stuffs dahil kung hindi, incomplete ang grade ko.. hay.. mahirap talaga ang buhay estudyante.. sino ba kasing nagsabi na madaling mag-aral? sa ibang school siguro.. pero not in up.. hay.. sana makatikim naman ako ng bakasyon.. kahit sandali lang..

i'm better off alone anyway..

forget about the title.. this post is really about father gil's homily during the 11am mass.. naisip ko lang, tama nga naman.. kahit saan totoo yun eh.. may sense of 'exclusivity' talaga.. once you don't belong to a group, you're already considered as a potential competitor or threat.. hay nako, ilang beses ko na bang naranasan yan.. since high school pa.. i don't wanna go into the details of the story.. pero basta, yun na yun.. alam na rin nung mga taong involved kung sino2 sila.. ayoko ng alalahanin pa yun.. basta ok naman ako ngayon.. sorry.. di ko na alam kung anong sunod na sasabihin ko.. next time na lang uli.. God bless everyone!