27 messages received..

..yan ang kinagisingan ko ngayong umaga..

maraming salamat sa lahat ng nagtext at bumati. sa mga nareplyan at natext ko, you must be really special. hehe. iilan lang talaga yung nasagot ko. pasensiya na po, hayaan niyo akong magpaliwanag. :D

yesterday (24th), morning pa lang busy-busyhan na ako. paggising ko, nandito sina tita ana. at gaya ng nakaugalian, nanood kame ni sam ng Barney. pag-uwi nila, nag-ayos na ako dahil ako ang naatasang mamili. paalis na ako nung dumating si kuya don. pumunta muna kame kina ate cyril para kunin ang mga bote at karton (opo, namamasura na kame ni kuya don. hehe.), at syempre inayos pa namin yun. pagkatapos nun, umalis na ako. as expected, matindi talaga ang trapik. whew! dumaan pa ako kina tito ray para sana ibalik yung book ni francine at ibigay na rin yung gift ko for lei & francine kaya lang wala sila, so tumuloy na ako sa ever. pagkatapos sa grocery, department store naman. ako rin kasi ang bumili ng gifts para sa mga inaanak ni papa. sabi ni tita magtaxi na raw ako. e kamusta naman, ang haba ng pila sa taxi, tapos wala pang taxi, kaya nag-jeep na lang ako. ang galing ko diba? 2 kilos ng pasta, ingredients ng pasta, wine, at mga regalo - lahat yun binitbit ko lang. pero syempre pagdating ko sa kanto, sumakay na ako sa tricycle, masakit na dibdib ko e. hehe. at syempre rin pinagalitan ako ni mama. haha. pasaway kasi. kumain lang ako saglit tapos alis na naman para bumili ng cake. hindi na kasi ako nakabili sa ever kasi nga marami na akong dala. pag-uwi ko galing rosario, nagbalot na ako ng mga regalo. oh yes, ako pa rin yun, kame ni mama. e bakit ba kasi kame lang? nasan ang mga tao? well, sa mga hindi po nakakaalam, 4 lang kame sa pamilya - si mama, si papa, ako, at si arnold. kame lang ni mama ang nandito sa bahay kasi may trabaho yung dalawang lalake. ayun, wala talagang choice. hehe. pero ok lang naman. naaliw naman akong magbalot. na-excite ako para sa mga bata. haha. pagkatapos nun, nag-ayos na ako kasi may practice naman kame sa chapel para sa Christmas presentation at mass. wala talagang pahinga. pagdating ko sa chapel, kanta to the max na. at syempre hanggang mass na yun. puro birit pa naman yung mga kanta. sa communion ba naman, Silent Night at O Holy Night. sakit sa ulo diba? tapos may medley pa ng mga tagalog songs. ayun. concert talaga. haha. after ng mass, umuwi na ako agad. nagbihis, kumain, at natulog. nakapagtext pa ako sa ilang tao. the last person i texted was dan. hindi ko na nahintay pa yung reply niya. nakatulog na talaga ako.

at yun nga.. paggising ko this morning, meron na akong 27 unread messages. at syempre hindi pa rin ako makareply kasi tapos na yung ETXT ko, hindi rin ako naka-unli at higit sa lahat, hindi ako makalabas para magload kasi masakit pa katawan ko. ang hirap bumangon. nagising ako ng 10, tapos natulog uli. hehe. sakit ng legs, likod, dibdib, at ulo ko. sobrang pagod kasi.

ayun. kaya pasensya na po sa mga hindi ko pa narereplyan. after kong ipost ito, rereplyan ko na kayo sa chikka. :D

*****

share ko lang din. this morning, i woke up with tears in my eyes. na-touch kasi ako sa panaginip ko. pumunta raw ako sa isang remote area to do mission work for GK (Gawad Kalinga). tapos may kausap raw kameng isang bata. she was telling us her dreams at naiyak siya kasi naaawa siya sa parents niya at sa sarili rin niya dahil sa kalagayan nila. ayun, naiyak na rin ako. at nagising ako kasi masakit nga dibdib ko. lam niyo naman pag umiiyak tayo diba? tagos talaga sa heart (lalo na ako). kaya yun.

naalala ko lang, i once asked God to speak to me in my dreams. sabi ko sa Kanya, baka pwede Niyang i-reveal saken yung plan Niya. naisip ko lang, baka ito na yun. maraming nagsasabi na baka magmadre raw ako pero hindi ko talaga nararamdaman yun. nung nasa banawe ako for therapy, naisipan ko ng pumasok sa kumbento, pero hindi talaga e. i already had the chance pero hindi ko ginawa kasi hindi ko ramdam na yun ang calling ko. ayokong gawin yun for the wrong reasons. mas nakikita ko yung sarili ko as a missionary. alam kong mas marami akong matutulungan sa ganun. but of course, i'm still praying for it. sabi nga ni ate an, matinding panalangin ang kelangan dun. pag-pray niyo rin ako ha? ^_^

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ayan, napahaba na naman ang kwento ko. may pupuntahan pa nga pala ako. hehe.

maligayang pasko sa lahat!

Jesus is the reason for the season. sana hindi naten yun makalimutan. ^_^

2 years and counting..

2nd Anniversary ng batch namin.. and i'm proud to say that among the batches, kame ata pinakasolid! haha. walang kokontra. sabi nga ni sidh, kame lang yung batch na kapag kumakain, nakapaikot pa talaga. at lahat din kame ay naging member ng music min. at ang pinakamaganda dun, lahat kame, smart. haha.

dahil gumawa ng tribute si sidh sa yahoo groups ng chapter, gagawa rin ako ng sarili kong version. :D

10 kameng grumaduate, pero 4 na lang kameng natira. pero yung apat na yun, bow talaga ako kasi service kung service talaga. at UNBREAKABLE kame. kame yung tipong kahit na sandamakmak na issue pa ang dumating, buo pa rin ang tiwala namin sa isa't isa. walang iwanan talaga. and i really love my batchmates kasi never pa nila akong sinaktan, as in never! si sidh, minsan, pag sinusupladuhan niya ako. haha. pero i swear, iba talaga samahan namin. at dahil mahal ko kayo, eto ang aking tribute...

ATE JULIE FONTANOSA:
isa siyang teacher. yun lang po. haha.
umm, seriously, isa siya sa pinakamabait sa chapter. totoong tao. walang bahid ng kaplastikan sa katawan. pero tama si sidh, mapanglait din minsan. haha. masaya kasama. makulit din. tsaka gusto ko talagang kumanta with her. pareho kasing maganda boses namin. hehe. basta mahal ko 'to si ate julie. as in! di ko nga akalain na GG niya pala si kuya rhed. akalain niyo yun? haha. pero what i like best about her is her simplicity. simple pero elegante. pag nakita niyo siya, mapapahanga na lang kayo. iba talaga aura niya. she's someone na talagang irerespeto mo. huwaran talaga. ^_^

KUYA RHED DIZON:
eto naman ang opposite ni ate julie. at dahil opposites attract, GG niya si ate julie. haha. joke lang. :D
mahal ko rin 'to si kuya rhed. galing maggitara. hanep bumanat. di ka talaga maaasar kahit nang-aasar na siya. gugulong ka lang kakatawa. panalo talaga sense of humor ng taong 'to. pero hindi lang siya basta komedyante. he's a wise person. may kwenta yung mga sinasabi niya. hindi lang basta salita, may laman talaga. hindi yung tipong magsasalita lang para masabing hindi siya pipi. lam niyo yun? meron kasing ganun, talking for the sake of talking, pero nonsense talaga. si kuya rhed, laging patawa, laging cool, pero once na nagsalita na siya, papakinggan mo talaga. and i really respect him. lagi niyang sinasabi na siya na ang papalit kay kuya pip. honestly kuya, matutuwa ako kung mangyayari yun. hihintayin ko yun kuya! hehe.
magda-drama lang ako ng konti. hindi ko alam kung natatandaan mo pa kuya. pero nung last time na pumunta ako sa practice ng music min, sinabi mong na-miss mo ako. hindi na ako sumagot pero ang totoo, miss ko na rin pong kumanta kasama kayo. i may be back anytime soon. hindi ako mangangako pero basta darating na lang siguro ako. ^_^

SIDH URSUA:
naman! ano pa bang sasabihin ko? siya lang naman ang partner ko since day one. as in CLP days pa lang.. hanggang ngayon sa pagiging chapter servants, partners pa rin kame. pero in fairness to us, matino naman yung nagiging result ng mga trabaho namin. hehe. siguro kasi may chemistry talaga kame. pareho kasi kameng scientist. haha. grabe, wala akong masabi sa partner kong 'to. mahal ko talaga 'to. kahit na suplado, reklamador, mapanglait at kung ano2 pa, the best partner pa rin talaga siya. (haha, tamang bawi matapos siraan. hehe.) lagi kameng nag-aaway at nagtatarayan pero ok pa rin naman nagiging output pag kame ngtandem sa isang project/activity/event. pareho kasi kame ng level ng pag-iisip. mga weirdo. hehe. wala na akong masabi. basta panalo yung taong 'to. lalo na pagdating sa pagprovide ng tinapay during gatherings. haha.
seriously, isa siya sa iilang pinagkakatiwalaan ko kasi subok ko na yung pagkatao niya. alam kong he's the kind of friend na hindi ka talaga ilalaglag. subok na yung samahan namin at yung bond namin as friends matibay na talaga. hindi ko lang siya basta ka-batch at kaibigan, kapatid ko pa siya. i'm really so blessed to have him as my partner. at thankful ako na siya partner ko. ^_^

AIZA GARNICA:
haha. kasama talaga ako sa tribute? hmm. ano pa bang masasabi ko tungkol sa sarili ko? umm... i'm perfect. period. haha. yabang. joke lang po. naalala ko lang yung sinabi sken ng isang DATING kaibigan. nagkaroon kame ng confrontation. hindi ko na maalala yung saktong sinabi niya but it was something like this: "one year na ako dito. at nakikita kong parang perfect ka na. pero hindi naman pwede yun diba? kasi wala namang taong perfect? so nag-isip ko kung ano kayang pwedeng ipintas sa'yo." hay. grabe diba? yun yung night na akala ko hindi na ako mabubuhay. nakakalungkot lang kasi sobrang minahal at pinahalagahan mo yung tao tapos ganun yung mangyayari. pero ang mas nakakalungkot ay kung ano na siya ngayon. tsk. oh well, it's her life. choice niya kung anong nangyayari sa kanya. minsan gusto kong isiping failure ako. pero tama rin si mae, malaki na siya at alam na niya kung anong tama at mali. i can only do so much. hindi ko siya pwedeng hawakan sa kamay at diktahan ng mga dapat niyang gawin. i just pray na tama yung pinili niyang samahan at kampihan. sana hindi siya nagkamali sa landas na pinili niyang tahakin.

o nga pala, happy post dapat ito. bakit ba bigla akong nalungkot? hehe. oh well. may mga naalala lang ako. pero yun nga, sa kabila ng lahat ng yun, eto pa rin ako.. masayang maging bahagi ng SFC. ^_^

gaya nga ng title ng post na ito, 2 years na ako sa community.. at malamang nandito pa rin ako until next year.. tapos in 3 years, or so, sa CFC naman. haha. dream on aiza! ^_^

o siya, pahinga na muna ako. naging mahaba ang araw na ito. bukas thesis report na naman.

hello everyone! ^_^

from Chynna's blog..

"When an emotional injury takes place,
The body begins a process
As natural as the healing
Of a physical wound

Let the process happen.
Trust that nature
Will do the healing.

Know that the pain will pass,
And, when it passes
You will be stronger;
Happier, more sensitive and aware."

Read full entry here: Chynna's Blog ^_^

*For my girlfriends.. especially LEYN.

beep beep..

oops.. tagal din pala akong di nakapag-online. na-miss ko ang friendster at multiply. but i'm back! hindi nga lang for good. alam niyo na, artista ako, daming shooting, pictorial, mall shows.. haha. joke lang. :))

ang totoo, super mega over busy talaga ako. AS IN! para may idea kayo kung anong pinaggagagawa ko sa buhay, eto ang listahan.. (pakialam niyo naman no? hehe. wala lang. bakit ba, gusto kong magkwento e. =p hay. na-miss ko yung ganito.. tamang type lang ng kung anong maisip ko.. nung mga nakaraang araw kasi duguan talaga ako e.. oh well.. game na, dadaldal na ako. hehe.)

maliban sa pagiging tao, isa na rin akong bampira ngayon. oh yeah! twilight fever. vampire mania. hehe. bampira kasi hindi na ako natutulog. hala. kamusta naman yun? malamang itatanong niyo, "may laman ka pa ba unai/aiza?" haha. yes friends, may laman pa naman ako.. buto nga lang.. haha. joke uli.. don't worry about me, buhay ako at as usual, ayos naman ako. :D

kabilang sa mga pinagkakaabalahan ko ay...

1. acads/thesis: improved heuristic on finding the minimal support set. yeba! np-complete problem po ang sinosolve ko. at dahil dun, duguan talaga ako. lalo na during report days. wala talagang tulugan. salamat na lang kay sir henri at ate jas na matiyagang nagtuturo saken. grabe, ilang beses ko pa kelangang basahin ang isang paper bago ko ito maintindihan. highly-mathematical kasi. pero masaya naman ako sa ACLab (Algorithms & Complexity Lab), at dahil masaya ako, sulit ang puyat at pagod. :)

2. service: full-time servant ako ng chapter, at minsan, ng sector na rin. basta kung san ako kelangan, go lang.. hangga't kaya ko pa.. :)

3. tutorial: ang part-time job na talaga namang kinakarir ko. pakiramdam ko talaga may calling ako sa pagtuturo.. hindi ng large class ha? di ko kaya yun. hehe. super love ko ang mga alaga kong sina francine, jeff, at josh. kahit na super kulit nila, lalo na nung dalawang boys, happy pa rin. masayang matuto kasama nila. :)

4. lovelife: yeba! haha. misleading ito. hindi po lovelife as in boy-girl relationship ha? lovelife as in LOVE life. :D sa ngayon kasi i see to it na naiingatan ko lahat ng relationship na meron ako (God, family, friends, edward --> haha. alam kong marami akong kaagaw pero basta boyfriend ko si edward cullen. hehe.) ^_^ last monday lang, sobrang saya kasi i was able to bond with my highschool girlfriends, ruth and mary anne, aka westlife sisters! pizza, pasta, and salad galore kame sa CPK trinoma. salamat nga pala kay sir randy na siyang nagbayad ng pizza at pasta namin. hehe. tapos ngayon lang, may bago na naman akong girlfriend. matagal ko na siyang friend actually pero ngayon lang kame naging girlfriends. hehe. i love you girlfriend! :)

nagkita rin kame ni alpha kanina at syempre tamang chikahan. at eto pa, may nagtext sken this morning. sun siya. kung pwede raw akong maging textmate at kung may boyfriend na raw ba ako. haha. ang corny no?! so syempre deadma ako. haha. actually nagreply ako, tinarayan ko lang siya at sinabing may boyfriend na ako! meron naman talaga. si edward cullen. haha. wala lang. ewan ba, wala talaga akong panahon sa ganyan ngayon e. masaya ako. period. sabi ko nga, postponed til further notice ang lovelife ko. haha.

ayun. ayun lang pala. acads. work. service. relationships. yan ang mga yaman ko sa buhay. :)

kamusta naman ako? well, i'm good! i'm great, actually! tired, yes.. but i'm definitely happy! ^_^

P.S. ang bilis ng panahon.. december na naman. tapos new year na uli! whew! cebu, malapit na tayong magtagpo! hehe. onga pala, dahil pasko na, syempre may wishlist ako. hehe. next post na lang siguro o di kaya sa homepage ko. hehe. sa mga may balak magregalo, pakitingin na lang sa wishlist ko. haha.

ang saya ko no?! stress-reliever ko talaga 'to e. hehe.

God bless everyone! i hope you're all well. ^_^

stress-reliever.

today is STRESS day. headaches galore talaga because of too much thinking. at ngayon, matutulog na muna ako. hindi na kaya ng mga mata ko. pero bago ako humiga at pumunta sa neverland (where dreams come true), basa muna ako ng text messages ng friendly friends ko. sabay type na rin dito para mabasa niyo rin. ^_^

"Hardest lessons and problems in life are also the most precious ones. Know why? Because they force us to face our weakness and fears, but above all, they unleash hidden strengths we never know we had."
>>so true. kahit ako nagugulat na lang na kinakaya ko lahat e. after every storm, mapapangiti na lang ako habang sinasabi sa sarili kong, "ayan. tapos na! buhay ka pa!"<<

"Never be afraid to try something new because life gets boring when you stay within the limits of what you already know. Take risk and learn."
>>tama. we're all students in this university called 'life'. pero hindi enough na sabihin nateng, "we'll know better next time." kelan pa yung next time na yun? patunayan nateng natututo nga tayo. hindi puro salita lang. [ehem. excuse me sa matatamaan. pero kasi medyo nakakasawa ng marinig na "next time alam na naten."]<<

"Ang sabi ng Science, 'only one thing can occupy a given space at a given time.' Kaya ako? Hindi ako naniniwala na ang isang puso kayang magmahal ng dalawa. It's either joke lang yung love for the other one o kaya sa sobrang liit ng pagmamahal dun sa isa, nagkaroon pa ng space para magmahal ng iba."
>>hindi rin ako naniniwala. tama, pwedeng joke lang yung dun sa isa. kaya... alam na! hehe. hindi na ako magcocomment pa. baka may makabasa, masaktan pa. haha. pero girl, eto lang sasabihin ko sayo, :p haha. belat! [soul sis, alam na kung sinong tinutukoy ko. haha. may ikukwento ako sa'yo pag nagkita tayo!]<<

ayun na lang pala muna. kelangan ko ng magpahinga. haggard na naman bukas.

please pray for a successful Singgolympics tomorrow. thanks and God bless everyone! ^_^

if today you hear His voice, harden not your hearts..

i woke up with an aching back and a heavy head. i'm still not feeling well. if i had a choice, i would have stayed in bed and just sleep and rest the whole day. but i have to go to UP because i need to talk to Sir Danao. i arrived a little late at the ME department. Sir Danao just left and i was told that he "may" be back after lunch. disappointed, i went straight to my sanctuary in UP - the adoration chapel.

the previous weeks had been so stressful. i've had lots of frustrations and disappointments. i'm getting tired talking to people, understanding their sentiments, taking the responsibilities they ought to do. i've always been the "dependable" one. it has always been ME. what's frustrating is the fact that I CAN DEPEND ON NOBODY. since i've been the dependable lady, everyone's counting on me but I CAN'T COUNT ON ANYONE.

sad. frustrating. but true.

well, that's how i feel with all the things that's been happening. so i poured out all my frustrations to the ONLY ONE I CAN DEPEND ON - GOD! i spent half an hour or so talking to Him because i know ONLY HE CAN UNDERSTAND. i felt a whole lot better after my date with the Lord, as always.

i spent some more minutes in the chapel. i scanned my planner and i realized how busy i had been (and still am!). i eventually closed my planner, knelt down before the Blessed Sacrament, and went to the chapel to attend the 12nn mass. outside the adoration chapel stood a woman in black who seemed to be waiting for someone. true enough, she is! and that someone is ME! yes! she's been waiting for me. she saw me praying and her attention was caught by what's printed on my shirt. i'm wearing the "love one another/at home" shirt from this year's ILC. she asked me if i'm a member of a christian group. and i said yes, Singles for Christ. i don't know what she saw in me but she was very concerned. she asked me if i had already taken my lunch and i told her that i'll have lunch after the 12nn mass. we had a good conversation. she said that she is a lawyer, and so is her husband. her daughter is a 2nd year BS Chemistry student in the university. i really don't know how or why but we both touched and inspired each other. she told me things that a mother would tell her daughter and i was really comfortable talking to her. then her husband came. she told me that she would pray for me and that i should take care of my health. and because i won't be able to have lunch with them, she gave me what's supposed to be her offering in the chapel. i was hesitant to accept the money but she insisted. she left with nothing but good words and reminders for me as if i was her daughter. i was really touched.

thank you tita maricar! i will pray for you and your family. i know God will bless you more. and thank You Lord for letting me know such a good person as tita maricar albay.

.....

and what did God's voice tell me?

"My child, cheer up! It is not always you. It is NOT JUST you. I am always here! I'm with you anywhere and everywhere. You don't need to feel that nobody cares because I do! And don't ever think that only you understand, only you care, because there are people, who may be strangers to you, but sincerely cares for you and your well-being. You can count on them, for I AM IN THEM."

such a sweet message from an ever-loving Father. and amazingly, i realized that everything is connected to Bo's message in Preacher in Blue Jeans today.

"Be not just a tourist, but a pilgrim. Be not just a pilgrim who seeks God in the sacred, holy places, but a pilgrim who seeks and sees God anywhere and everywhere."

indeed, God is ever-present in our midst, because He is IN us and WITH us.

here's the song i'm singing right now...

You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hands
and lead me in Your righteousness

and i look to You
and i wait on You

I'll sing to You Lord a hymn of love
for Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You never let me go, through it all..

old notes for sale

Yes friends, negosyante na rin ako ngayon. Haha. Nagliligpit kasi ako ng mga gamit at nahanap ko yung mga nakatagong lumang notes at readings mula pa 1st year ata. Hehe. At dahil gusto kong magbawas ng mga gamit, naisipan kong ibenta na lang sila. So kung may kilala po kayong kelangan ng readings na 'to, please tell them to contact me. :D Super mura lang. In good condition po lahat. Price ranges from 1php to 20php depende sa kapal. Kung bibilhin po yung buong set, syempre mas mura. :D Salamat salamat sa pagrespond. God bless! ^_^

*English 12 Readings (Dr. J. Schriever):
1. Tartuffe
2. The Medea of Euripides
3. Literary Theory (Terry Eagleton)
4. On the Art of Poetry
5. Cannibal Manifesto
6. Introduction to Novels
7. The Search (Naguib Mahfouz) - book
8. Foe (JM Coetzee) - book

*CS 32 Complete Notes (Prof. E. P. Quiwa)

*SEA 30 Notes
1. Body, Movement, and Culture (Sally Ann Ness)
2. The Death of Authentic Primitive Art
3. Hills & Plains
4. Geography of Asia
5. Geography of Southeast Asia

*Araling Pilipino 12 Notes (Sir Iniego)

expect nothing [and some quotes]

Father Raymond Arre made his point clear: expect nothing! less expectations = less disappointments. He further said, "If gratitude is to be given, let it be spontaneous. If it's not coming from the heart, it is not gratitude at all."

I couldn't say more.

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some quotes and text messages...

--> "Love begins by taking care of the closest ones - the ones at home." [Mother Teresa]

--> "Kindness is the language which the deaf can hear and the blind can see." [Mark Twain]

--> Blowing out someone else's candle doesn't make yours burn any brighter. [This is really a good thought.]

i am Sponge Bob Square Pants.

[how true?]

sorry, can't help it. natuwa ako sa email ni kuya ian. ang cute lang. sort of personality test pero 10 questions lang. eto yung result nung sken, kayo na lang humusga. hehe. ayoko ng mag-comment pa. lalo na dun sa traitor thing. haha.

(29-35 points) You are Sponge Bob Square Pants. You are the classic person that everyone loves. You are the best friend that anyone could ever have and never wants to lose. You never cause harm to anyone and they would never not understand your feelings. Life is a journey, it's funny and calm for the most part. Stay away from traitors and jealous people and you will be stress free.

mga natirang mensahe..

nitong mga nakaraang araw, super haggard ako. basta hindi super ok yung mood. at dahil karamihan sa mga nagpapasira ng araw ko e yung mga text ng ilang tao, i deleted all the messages in my inbox. napagtripan ko lang. hehe. eto na lang ang naiwan. at dahil gusto ko na uli i-empty ang inbox ko, share ko na sila bago ko pa idelete. ^_^

"Love is a disease no one wants to get rid of. Those who catch it never try to get better, and those who suffer do not wish to be cured." -Paulo Coelho, Eleven Minutes (Maria's Diary)
>>this book is really really nice. super promote nga si leyn e. hehe. by the way, hindi po ako super agree sa quote. nilagay ko lang yan kasi malamang maraming makaka-relate. haha. buti na lang hindi na ako kasali sa mga nakaka-relate na yun. because i'm already healed. ^_^

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A precious truth to remember: be the reason for someone's happiness, not just a part of it; be a part of someone's sadness but not the reason for it.
>>super true!

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You'll never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have.
>>oo nga. agree rin ako dito.

*****

yun lang. isang magandang araw. kelangan ko ng mag-ayos. may pasok pa ako. God bless everyone! ^_^

bounce!

good morning everyone! i am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo full of hope and energy today after reading In His Steps and watching Preacher in Blue Jeans. Bo Sanchez is such a blessing. how can i ever miss his simple yet powerful talks? it's just amazing how he can dig deeper wisdom even in the simplest, shallowest situations. and i am really inspired. ^_^

to my truest friends, if you have already read what i've posted last night, thank you. and guess what? just right after i posted it, i watched the Preacher in Blue Jeans Nov. 6 episode. and i was teary-eyed when Bo led the prayer. it was really really meant for me.

i am happy, hopeful, inspired. no one can ever let me down.

two days ago, i got this message from Ate Marge: Never hate the times in life where you have fallen or failed. Though hard to accept, these are the times when we stand up again and show the world that failures don't define us; they make us STRONGER.

but before that, i had some insightful conversation with a friend from grade school after he sent me this message: The real winners in life are the people who look at every challenge with an assurance that they can be victorious through God's strength, God's power, and God's love.

when i read that message, i texted him back to thank him for sending me the right message at the right time. i told him i am struggling and yes, i am getting my strength from the source of everything, my God and my Savior. and because wewe is such a wise man, this was his reply: ""aiz.. ganun talaga, being strong is not a gift, not a talent, but a choice. lahat kayang maging malakas kung gugustuhin. basta hingi ka lang ng lakas sa Itaas, sigurado ibibigay Niya yun.. basta maniwala ka lang."

yes, i believe that behind everything that happens in life is God's beautiful purpose. i believe that God knows best. i believe in His Divine plan. i believe that in the end, all will work for my greater good. i believe that at the end of this struggle, i will emerge even stronger, wiser, better than who i am right now.

i am holding on to that faith. again, i declare that no one and nothing can ever bring me down. because God is my strength, and He has been using all the good (umm.. ok, even the bad ones.. hehe..) people in the world to encourage and inspire me to go on.

life is still and will always be beautiful. ^_^

~The most successful, the greatest people in the world are those who have failed the most, and have bounced the most times.~

you think you're a failure? well, guess what, I, also AM. i dared to fail. but more importantly, i dare to BOUNCE back even higher. ^_^

have a great day people! by the way, to ATE CHIE and UNDO, Happy Birthday!

God bless everyone! ^_^

mga nahukay sa baul..

nagliligpit ako ng mga gamit dahil naghahanap ako ng mga pwedeng ibenta/irecycle.. alam niyo na, kelangan ng pondo.. medyo maraming gastos lately e.. ^_^

at eto ang mga nahanap kong lines from the movies i watched in 2005.. (sa DVD ko lang napanood yung mga 'to.. hehe..)

i'm not really sure if i've already posted them.. pero i searched my blog, at hindi ko naman sila nakita so ipopost ko na lang uli.. hehe..

Starship Troopers:

*Force is the supreme authority from which all other authority is derived.

*All is fair in love and war.

*Figuring things out for yourself is the only freedom anyone really has. Use that freedom, make up your mind.

*Never pass up a good thing.

*Pain is in your mind.

Castaway:

*I got to keep breathing, because tomorrow the sun will rise. Who knows what the tide could bring? -Chuck Noland (Tom Hanks)

50 First Dates: (this is one of my most loved movies of all time.. i fall in love everytime i watch this..)

*Nothing beats the first kiss. -Lucy (Drew Barrymore)

*Being with you is the only way I could have a full and happy life. You're the girl of my dreams, and apparently, I'm the man of yours. -Henry Roth (Adam Sandler)

>>awww.. i keep on falling in love with Henry Roth.. haha.. *blushing*

A Beautiful Mind:

*Mathematics is not going to lead you to the higher truth, because it's boring. -Charlie (hehe. boring ba ang math? hindi naman.. depende siguro sa topic..)

*Genius knows an answer before the question.

*Nothing's ever for sure - that's the only thing I do know for sure. -Charlie

*The only way I could help him is to make him see the difference what is real and what is in his mind. -Dr. Rosen

*I need to believe that something extraordinary is possible. -Alicia

**the following lines are from John Nash (Russell Crowe)**

*In competitive behavior, everyone loses. >>this is VERY, VERY true!

*The best result comes from everyone in the group doing what is best for himself and the group.

*There are many solutions to any given problem.

*I don't believe in luck but I do believe in assigning value to things.

*It is only in the mysterious equations of love that any logical reason can be found.

Intolerable Cruelty:

*Life is a compromise.

*The fault lies not in our stars, but in ourselves.

*Love need cause us no fear. Love need cause us no shame. Love is good. -Miles Massey (George Clooney)

Mona Lisa Smile:

*Art isn't art until someone says it is. -Elizabeth Warren (Kirsten Dunst)

*LIfe without you.. isn't just life. -Paul >>waaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh! another healt-melting line.. another LIE.. haha..

*Change takes time. -Bill >>aba e, oo naman.

*Not all who wander are aimless.. especially not those who seek truth beyond tradition, beyond definition, beyond the image. -Elizabeth Warren (Kirsten Dunst)

**from Katherine Watson (Julia Roberts)**

*You can conform to what other people expect or you can be yourself.

*People change. Things happen.

*Not every relationship is meant for marriage. >>unfortunately, this is true.

*To change for others is to lie for yourself. >>this is again, TRUE.

Lagaan: (Indian Movie)

**these lines have really great wisdom**

*To do my duty, I can't be false to my religion.

*You have to get burnt to save your house from fire.

*Only those who dream can make them come true.

*He who has truth and courage in his heart shall win in the end.

*However thick the sole, it wears out.. then nails will begin to prick.

Drumline:

**napanood ko 'to during our trip to Ilocos (Art Studies 2 class)

*No matter what obstacles life may bring, always remember: You can fly!

The Family Man:

*Don't screw up the best things in your life just because you're a little unsure about who you are. (Nicholas Cage)

*All this time, I never stopped loving you. >>oh c'mon! as if maniniwala pa ako.. haha..

at ang koleksyon ng mga mensaheng nasa inbox ng cp ko…

~The only real power capable of punishing crime is conscience.

~The importance of good friends in our lives is like the importance of heartbeats.. though not visible, they silently support our lives.

~The greatest value of having good friends is not what you get from them, but the better person you become because of them.

~When you’re in pain, don’t fight it.. you’ll just get exhausted. One advice: Feel the pain, until it hurts no more.

~If you don’t act foolish while you’re young, you won’t have anything to smile about when you’re older.

~It’s not about being who everyone else wants you to be.. it’s about being yourself.. and finding someone who loves every bit of it.

~”My only regret in dying is if it’s not for love.” – Florentino Ariza’s father (Love in the Time of Cholera, Gabriel Garcia Marquez)

Good night everyone! Happy 1st of November! ^_^ (52 days before Christmas! -according to countdowns found in the world wide web)

..standing still..

i'm still alive! ^_^ sa kabila ng napakarami kong pinagdaananan, nandito pa rin ako.. at maraming salamat sa mga taong nanatiling kasama at kakampi ko.. lalo na sa mga hindi napagod mahalin at intindihin ako.. sorry pero i'm expecting all of you to be with me for the next 22 years of my life.. hehe.. wala kayong kawala! haha. i love you so much my dearly beloved BEST, TRUEST, COOLEST family and friends.. hindi ko na iisa-isahin pa kung sino kayo.. alam ko naman na kung sino yung TOTOO at kung sino yung nagpapanggap lang.. :p

medyo matagal akong nawala.. i went to isabela for mom and dad's wedding.. the place was nice, but then again, THERE'S NO BETTER PLACE THAN HOME.. ^_^

i went back immediately after the wedding.. i arrived on Sunday morning.. went to Feast with Papa, was blessed by God's message through Arun, AND was surprised by the "party" prepared by my loveliest girlfriends, mae and alpha.. kaya pala bigla na lang sumama si mae dito at hindi nagrereply si alpha.. may mga balak pala sila.. at ang dami pang kasabwat.. tsk.. hehe.. pero grabe, super mega over na-touch at na-shock ako.. LALO NA SA FLOWERS! grabe, for the first time in my entire life, nakatanggap ako ng BOUQUET!

SUPER THANK YOU GIRLS! (i know na-touch din si marshee.. we were both teary-eyed, actually naiyak na talaga ako sa sobrang pagka-overwhelm.. i'm still in awe.. indescribable yung feeling..)

by the way, did i mention na ako ang nakasalo ng bouquet sa simbahan (sa wedding nina Mommy Yet at Daddy Mike)?? haha.. but it was just for the sake of the pictorial, so no worries.. besides, wala pa naman akong groom.. hehe..

during the days that i wasn't able to go online (because of some things), i had so many thoughts in mind..

but now that i already have the access, biglang wala na akong maisip.. i still can't get over the blessings and surprises i received during the previous week..

basta I AM HAPPY! yun na! hehe. thanks thanks people! i super love all of you! *BIG HUG*

*****

some text messages..

*Every person passing through this life will unknowingly leave something and take something away. Most of this "something" cannot be heard or seen or numbered. It does not show up in a census but nothing counts without it. -Robert Fulghum, All I Really Need To Know I Learned In Kindergarten

*Don't let your life be spoiled by the words of an envious few if the rest of the world is busy telling you how great you truly are.

*A word of encouragement during a failure is worth more than an hour of praise after success.

*BOB ONG vs. JUAN TAMAD: ang pagmamahal. . .

"parang elevator lang yan e, bakit mo isisiksik ang sarili mo kung wala ng pwesto para sa'yo? e meron namang hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin." -bob ong

"mapuno man ang elevator, sigurado namang babalik ito, at darating ang panahon na makakasakay din ako" -juan tamad

*Sabi nila, "kung sino may kailangan, siya ang dapat lumapit." Pano yung nalulunod? Siya rin ba ang lalapit? Laugh but look beyond the joke. It's not always the people with worries who should come to us for help. Sometimes we need to be sensitive enough to know when to make the first move. Isn't it?

*It is better to wait for years for someone you are sure of, than to grab that chance with someone who picks you up but drops you whenever he/she wants to.

*The person meant for you is the person who will love you even when there's no more reason to love you. For in your nothingness, the one meant for you will find what's lovable in you.

age is just a number..

"... it's how you carry yourself that matters.." -Jean Garcia

i turned 22 yesterday.. and from the bottom of my heart, i thank everyone who remembered my birthday and made it special by sending me sweet messages (through call, text, friendster, and multiply)..

naglolokohan pa kame ni papa nung 14. sabi niya, 11:45am pa raw ako dapat batiin kasi yun talaga "birth time" ko.. kaya sabi ko yung mga bumati before 11:45am, hindi ko tatanggapin kasi hindi ko pa birthday yun. haha. adik lang. :))

anyway, here are some of the messages i received from my "ate's" in the community..

*"You are created by God to succeed, designed to win, equipped to overcome, anointed to prosper, blessed to become a blessing." -Ate Flory

*"May Jesus, the great master give light to your mind, give peace to your soul, give love to your heart, and bless you always." -Ate Jing

*"Everyday brings new chances to grow, new beauty to see, new plans to do, and goals to pursue. Everyday is a step towards our dream in life." -Ate Ive

but...

... of all the messages I received, this was the most touching:
"Ang dami ng napagdaanan at nalampasan. What doesn't kill you will make you stronger nga daw. Here's to staying stronger and living life longer!"

thank you so much chai! tama ka, i'm getting stronger everyday and with every heartache i overcome.. thanks for being there to support me all the way.. *hug*

sa lahat ng bumati MARAMING SALAMAT! :)

-Ate Jinky
-Ate Betty
-Shy (thank you sa e-card)
-Ayhie
-Omarjay
-Sidh (batch, salamat sa tinapay! super favorite ko yun.. thank you talaga!)
-Tita Monic
-Ruth
-Alpha (heelz ko! thank you talaga!)
-Thothon
-Dantots (nakigamit ka pa talaga ng globe sim para matext lang ako. hehe. salamat!)
-Rona
-Ate Glenda
-Daddy Choi (punta ka na dito! sabi mo uwi ka ng October?? hmp! hehe. peace. salamat salamat! yung pili nuts ko ha? wag mong kalimutan! hehe.)
-Patrick Iho (salamat sa movie at sa card. love it! thanks thanks iho!)
-Mae (soul sis! grabe, thank you kasi kahit pagod ka na, dumaan ka pa rin dito.. at sinama mo pa si Bloi, bagong sis na naman. ^_^)
-Bloi (hope to get to know you better. ^_^)
-Binoy
-Kuya Ian (thank you thank you kasi kahi 40 days ng Dad mo ngayon, pumunta pa rin kayo ni Cat. salamat po uli!)
-Jireh (salamat sa pagpapabati mo. ^_^)
-Kuya Jophet
-Renzy
-Felix (isa sa mga hindi ko expected na makakaalala.. hehe.. pero thank you talaga!)
-Paul
-Ate Gemma (thank you rin sa message ate. *hug*)
-Kuya Cesar
-Cat
-Kuya Don (naman kuya! I LOVE YOU! yun na! mula pa nung nagsisimula ako sa community, hanggang ngayon, hindi mo pa rin ako iniiwan.. hindi ka napapagod.. sobrang salamat talaga!)
-Chai
-Ate Flory
-Ate Ghen
-Eds
-Wei (salamat sa pansit at sa cute na cute na gift. ^_^)
-Kuya Rap
-Ate Cynthia
-Jean
-Toper
-Mercy (grabe mers! na-miss kita! salamat sa pag-alala)
-Tita Ana
-Joebet
-Rain
-Ate Jing
-Ate Ive
-Ken
-Lei
-JB
-Jose
-Czarina
-Kuya Pip
-Vhel
-Zhel (salamat sa lengua de gato! ^_^)
-Alvin (sabi mo ittreat mo ako diba? hehe.)
-Jenny
-Kuya Vino
-Mom & Dad (wohoo! ikakasal na kayo! i'll see you tomorrow!)
-Jen
-Ate Kathy (sobrang thank you po.. pleasant surprise din yung message mo ate.)
-Dawn (buddy! i miss you!)
-Ate Sol (ate, super thank you po.)
-Theng
-Melai
-Undo (ok lang kahit late.. sabi ko nga kay kuya vino, "better late than never" hehe..)
-Ate Nheng
-Ate Leah
-Osang
-Eloisa
-Hollyfaith (sa friendster.. thank you! ^_^)
-Hannah (purp! rappel tayo!)
-Shezha (i miss you!)
-Mary Anne
-Ge
-Nhel
-Gel
-Doneck
-Kuya Gilbert
-Marshee (sis! happy birthday saten! aylabyu! yung pearl necklace bibilhin talaga naten yun! mwah!)
-Kuya Joey (wow! habol ka pa kuya! hehe. salamat salamat po! hi kay ate!)
-JC & JL (sa inyong dalawa, salamat na rin sa pagbati.. ok lang naman kahit di niyo na naalala. haha. peace! pakasaya kayo! masaya ako! ^_^)

at..

higit sa lahat..

dun sa isang taong nagtext saken na ito ang sinabi: "Ako yung iniisip mo (sana) na akala mo nakalimutan ko na birthday mo. Di na ako magpapakilala basta one day malalaman mo na, 'ah ok siya pala yun' sabay tatawa ka nalang.. :-p"

kung sino ka man, maraming salamat.. bahala ka, ayaw mong magpakilala e..

at eto, lastly, bago ako mag-log out at magpatuloy sa pagliligpit ng mga gamit papuntang isabela, share ko lang yung nabasa kong verse kagabi.. sakto rin sa birthday ko..

from Wisdom 4:7-8. "The upright, even if he dies before his time, will be at rest. Honorable age does not depend on the length of days, nor is the number of years a true measure of life." Indeed, it's not so much about how long you live but HOW WELL you live. na-connect ko rin sa isa sa most-loved movies ever ko: Tuck Everlasting. there's a line there that says, "Don't fear death, but rather the unlived life. You don't have to live forever, you just have to live!"

22 na ako.. at HAPPY ako.. kasi buhay pa ako (literally and figuratively)!! ^_^

sabi nga ni vhel, one year na rin daw pala ang nakakaraan.. sabi rin niya, one year na nga daw.. at oo! one year na nga ang lumipas.. at ako? eto, buhay pa.. mas matibay, at mas masaya! ^_^

sorry na lang, pero you can't bring me down.. hehe.. i'm alive and well.. because God has been, and will always be with me. ^_^

again, salamat sa lahat ng taong nanatiling kakampi ko.. lalo na dun sa mga nanindigang "walang iwanan!" ^_^

salamat uli! God bless everyone! until Sunday (when I get back from Isabela).. ^_^

i want to..

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SLEEP! hehe.. it's the greatest gift i could ever give myself.

good night people! ^_^

late post.

*Sometimes, it's not love.. sometimes, you had just become so attached that you have developed a need for that person.. JUST A NEED.. NOT LOVE..
[hmm.. so goes "i love you because i need you?" too bad.. in that case, persons are not treated as PERSONS but as OBJECTS - something we can use to satisfy our needs.. tsk. tsk.]

*No person has the right to condemn your heart because no one knows how much you're hurting. [true.]

*Don't waste your time on someone who doesn't appreciate you the way you should be appreciated. Don't ever settle for mediocrity, for being just an option, for being the one who's just fun to be with, for being the one who's always there, desperately waiting for mere concern or pity; or someone who likes you just because he/she knows he's/she's got the power to break you. Don't settle because deep down, you know who you are, and you know without a doubt that you deserve better if not the best.
>>need i say more? i learned this the hard way. just a little sharing. when i was in high school i had a list of qualities that i want my man to have. i listed around 40 qualities - from physical appearance to talents and skills to attitude.. in short, i've come up with my "ideal man".. a guy friend told me that i'm looking for mr. perfect and that unfortunately, he doesn't exist, so even if i wait forever, he will never ever come.. because there's no such being.. i didn't listen to him.. instead, i remained hopeful (and prayerful) that someday, i'll meet him - the man who would meet all my "requirements".. and then a guy came.. and eventually (after a year) i fell in love with him.. during the first few months, i was consulting my checklist.. good thing, he had some of the qualities listed there.. but as i get to know him more, i also began to take my checklist for granted.. one reason was that i could no longer find qualities of him that matches any of those written on my list.. another thing was, i was fooled by my heart when it told me that "when you love a person, you love ALL of him, no if's, no but's, no questions asked.." stupidity ruled, and my logical brain wasn't able to win over my illogical heart. and after almost three years of living in a fantasy world (where i claimed that our relationship was perfect), i woke up from a nightmare that almost killed me. it took me a year to recover from such pain. and then came another.. and i thought he'd be "it".. he promised to take care of me, protect me, and love me more than the previous guy did. i remember him texting my 1st ex that he (the 2nd ex) won't hurt me the same way that my 1st ex did. well, true enough, he didn't hurt me the same way, he did worse than that. haha. well at least he didn't lie when he said that. (and sad to say, after learning everything that i need to know about him, i'm thinking that was the only TRUTH he has ever told.. everything else was a LIE..) so what's my point? i don't know either. hehe. i'm lost. :)) well, just recently, on one of my "thinking days", i came up with this WHAT IF: "What if I strictly followed the requirements/standards that I've set? What if I really waited for the man who possesses ALL of those qualities?" Only two things could happen, either I'd be waiting forever and eventually die alone OR I would be the happiest person in the whole universe - free from PAIN and HEARTACHES and would not have experienced emotional death.. BUT.. I wouldn't have grown this strong either. And man, the lessons that I learned from those two guys and the failed relationships I had with them are PRICELESS. I may have lost them (and I may have also lost some of my precious time, effort, understanding, tears, and much much genuine love) but I have gained WISDOM, which is more valuable. ^_^ Why am I sharing this? Because I want to. hehe. Seriously, I just want to write. Actually, i was supposed to post text messages only.. but as you can see, it didn't end with just text messages. hehe. well, that's just me.. ^_^

and i also want to say this: stop blaming people. we all get hurt, and we, too, intentionally or not, hurt others as well. so let's just stop pointing our fingers to anyone. why don't we just accept the fact that we, too, commit mistakes, and that sometimes, we are also the ones who hurt ourselves? the best way to heal your broken soul is to admit that you've been hurt not just by people, but also by your own foolish heart (or even sometimes, your illogical mind). forgive those who hurt you, but more than that, forgive yourself. learn. let go. move on. that's it. then you'd find out that indeed, THERE'S ALWAYS A RAINBOW/SUNSHINE AFTER THE RAIN. (kung gabi man dumating yung ulan, hindi mo na nga makikita yung rainbow at sunshine, pero for sure, kinabukasan, liliwanag na uli. -para sa mga pilosopo diyan. hehe. naniniguro lang. haha.) ^_^

*Until God sends me my angel on earth to love and to cherish forever, I will be content to be alone. I will wait until the day God will say, "Here is the one for you. Live happily ever after, your name is written on his heart." [cute! ^_^]

*Life is too short to stress yourself with people who do not even deserve to be an issue in your life. [naman! haha.]

*You start to get hurt the moment you begin to care. [especially if that care isn't appreciated, worse, if the one you care for takes you for granted or doesn't even know you exist.. c'mon! emo! :p]

*You will always know what you want.. Oftentimes, you just don't know what you are willing to give up for it. [hmmm..]

I've been over busy these days.. there's a lot that I'd like to share.. maybe next time.. maybe.. ^_^

fail quickly..

can't help but share this beautiful insight from Bo Sanchez:

*note: watch the video and listen to the prayer. ^_^

10.07.08

You are not a victim when you go through failure, it is simply a message from God telling you: "try again!"

lift it up... He's building something greater within you.

Law of Seeds: Not every seed will become a tree.
>>Not every effort that you do will bear fruit and become an achievement.

all you need is one tree.. and you may have 500 seeds.. but one tree is all you need to bear fruit..

in your life you're gonna get rejected.. in your life you will have failures.. but God will be using those failures..

Failure is a part of life.

FAIL QUICKLY.. so that you can try again.. ^_^

i remember this popular Billi Lim book: DARE TO FAIL.

that's all.. need to do lots of stuffs..

til next post. good night people! God bless! ^_^

another long post.. ^_^

been sooooooooo busy.. MP, exam, SFC production, tutorial, and a lot more..

and because i wasn't able to blog during the previous days, babawi ako ngayon.. hehe.. i still have a lot to do actually, but i already have so many things/thoughts to share.. i can't wait any longer.. ^_^

*****
on friendship.. [got this from our upper household..]
*read: Sirach 6:5-17

A friend in need is a friend indeed. -cliche but still and will always be true.

Don't judge the book by its cover. -another cliche, but here's another way to look at it: Hindi lahat ng mabait sa'yo, mabait hanggang huli. we really need to discern well before we trust someone, because sometimes, in as much as we don't want it to happen, our best friend can become our worst enemy.

The friend who holds your hand and says the wrong thing is made of dearer stuff than the one who stays away. -a true friend tells you the truth no matter how painful it is, BUT he/she does it in the most loving way possible.

A good friend remembers what we were and sees what we will be. -knows your past, your dreams, and your goals.

*Crash and Burn [Savage Garden] (i remember Leah Natividad, she gave us a copy of this song during our last days in high school.) -sometimes, you don't have to say anything to cheer up a friend.. all you have to do is BE THERE. your presence is enough. ^_^

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

'Cause there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breathe again

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

*Friends are expressions of God's love. [and that's why i feel that i'm being loved deeply by God.. because i have not just good friends, but the best ones. ^_^]

*****

text messages for the soul.. [hehe. just some of the messages that made me smile, think, and smile again. ^_^]

Mornings are meant to be shared with special people in our lives, and I want to share my fresh morning with someone that makes it worth starting. [yihee! ^_^]

If ever you'll find someone who makes you smile through storms, comforts you til sun down, face the fact.. keep and never let go of that person theres NO RIGHT ONE when the REAL ONE comes along. [this may be true if you're talking about friendship, but if this is about romantic relationship, i disagree. yes, these things matter but no, they're not enough. and i still believe that the RIGHT ONE exists. you just have to wait. ^_^ (i've been a victim of this thinking, please save yourself. finding a real person is easy, finding the right one is difficult.)]

If you feel like no one cares about you, think again.. look in the mirror.. because the person you see needs you more than anyone else. [yeba! i love this one.]

If I could sum up all the causes of hurt, pain, and hatred in one word, it's just.. EXPECTATION. [well, i have my own version.. it's just.. (alam na ni mae yun. haha.)]

When you love someone, spare a little love for yourself. Enjoy other things around you and don't ever let your world REVOLVE around him/her. Ano ka? EARTH? tapos siya SUN? [haha. napost ko na rin ata 'to dati e.]

Happy thoughts remove life's pressures. They have healing powers that uplifts the spirit and lead to a blissful life. Think happy thoughts always. [^_^]

We spend our whole lives telling ourselves that everything happens for a reason. When in reality, we just give reasons for everything that happens. [yun na yun! the fact that we're able to give reasons to them, means that indeed, they have reasons. hehe. ang gulo ba? basta lahat may dahilan. at tayo lang din ang makakapagsabi kung ano nga yung kahulugan/purpose nila sa buhay naten. ^_^]

A wasted moment can make you regret so bad. A single mistake can change your whole life. Now, do you see how little things you ignore meant everything when they're gone? [...]

Part of the fantasy of every betrayed person is that one day, the person who hurt you will come back and answer all your questions, and apologize for hurting you. But the thing is.. THEY WON'T. They'll die a liar and will feel good about themselves. That's how selfish they are. They can't give you closure, you have to find it yourself. You get angry with them. Then you get over them. Bless them in your mind and have peace with yourself. When or if that person comes back, you can say "HI" and "GOODBYE" in the same sentence. -Oprah- [tsk. tsk. sad naman yun. oh well. i still believe in the capability of a person to change for the better. i know God will touch them soon. but i like the last part of the statement. "Then you get over them. Bless them in your mind and have peace with yourself. When or if that person comes back, you can say "HI" and "GOODBYE" in the same sentence". this is so true.]

It's one of those days that you just popped into my mind. And I don't know why or how. Nevertheless, I feel it's okay. Because anyway, the thought of you made me smile. [yihee uli! hehe.]

Bravery is saying NO to what you believe is NO. Sacrifice is saying NO to what you think is YES. Confidence is saying YES to what you think is YES. Trusting is saying YES to what you think is NO. [kaya naman, discern well before you trust. ^_^]

Reminder: Don't make the same mistake twice.. madami pang kasalanan dyan.. try mo yung iba.. haha.. [kalokohan lang. pero seryoso yung first part, learn from your mistake, wag ng ulitin pa yun. kasi raw ang pagkakamali, pag naulit pa, sinasadya na raw yun.]

Pastor: Next Sunday I'll preach about the sin of lying. To understand more, I want you all to read Mark Chapter 17.
(The following Sunday...)
Pastor: How many of you read Mark Chapter 17?
(Almost every hand went up except for a guy who dressed like a gangster.)
Pastor: Why my son? You haven't read what I told you?
Guy: Well I can't seem to find the 17th chapter.
Pastor: (smiled) Mark has only 16 chapters. Let's now proceed with my sermon on the sin of lying..
[ayy.. sinong guilty? ako aamin.. pero hindi sa pagbabasa ng Bible.. minsan kasi nalilimutan kong ipagpray yung ibang concerns ng mga tao. kaya ngayon, may prayer notebook na ako.. para siguradong lahat mapagdadasal ko. kaya guys, if you have prayer concerns, lalo na yung urgent, text/pm lang kayo. i'll pray for you until God grants your petitions or until He reveals a better plan. ^_^]

A simple thought to live by: When you fall, there will always be people at your back rejoicing at your loss. But that shouldn't bother you, because it only proves that you're the object of envy to people who are desperate to reach your level. [naks! yun e! hehe. medyo mayabang lang ang dating. pero if it helps boost your confidence, go and live by it. just make sure it won't get into your head. i'm sure you all know what i mean. ^_^]

eto na lang muna. next time uli. ^_^

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tiring but fulfilling weekend.. [just some updates on me and the things i've been busy with.. hehe..]

Friday: Chapter Assembly. thank you sa lahat ng message ng mga nag-honor. at sa lahat ng bumati. at lalong lalo na sa pagkanta nina Kuya Don, Pao, Wei, at Tin ng Saving Grace.

Saturday: Exam. Novena. Mass. Parangal Kay Maria. whew! sobrang nakakapagod. in charge kasi ang SFC sa production. pero masaya naman. very fulfilling. nag-enjoy din ako sa performance ng iba't ibang groups sa Parish, lalo na yung sa Escuela de Sto. Rosario. ang galing ng mga bata. higit sa lahat, masayang maglakad pauwi kasama si Kuya Don at si Ate Glenda. ang sarap makipag-usap sa kanila. at syempre, may bago na naman akong natutunan: UNITED WE STAND, UNITED WE FALL. i'm sure most, if not all of us, know the song "Yesterday's Dream".. "for united we stand, divided we fall.." wala lang.. may bagong version lang si Kuya Don na galing daw kay Kuya Cesar. ^_^ ibang meaning lang ng kanta.. "UNITED WE STAND, UNITED WE FALL" means WALANG SISIHAN. tipong in good and bad times, magkakampi tayo. eto dapat ang motto ng bawat community/group. dun kasi minsan nagkakaroon ng tampuhan e. when things go wrong, people choose to look for someone else to put the blame on, without realizing that they too, have responsibilities. sana ma-adopt naten yung attitude na "walang iwanan".. at higit sa lahat, walang sisihan.

Sunday: Feast with my family, Mae and Izzy. Facial with Mae. Practice for Caroling. Tutorial.
ang ganda ng Homily ni Father Romy Castro. five words: GOD IS CRAZY FOR YOU! He'll do anything for us. He loves us so much that He made the craziest decision of sending His only Son to save us and to bring us back to Him. God is truly, madly, deeply in love with us. E tayo, kanino ba tayo truly, madly, deeply in love? To whom do we dedicate the song, "Crazy for You"? some things to ponder on. ^_^

lastly, let me share what i read last night. Matthew 5:1-12. The Beatitudes.
ang nice ng commentary sa Bible ko, and that's what i'll be posting. ^_^

In the Beatitudes, the kingdom of God is at the same time the land of Palestine promised to the children of Abraham and the land where peace reigns, for God is present there. Those who hunger for justice will be given both bread and the holiness of God, because in the Bible, justice also signifies: being as God wishes us to be. Because of this, Jesus tells us that we shall be satisfied or consoled. Our consolation on earth is to know and see that God loves us and cares for us and in spite of all, can overturn the situation for the oppressed. It is also to know that even when it seems he does not hear our prayer, our cross has meaning and purpose. Finally we must not forget that in our future life God will give us more than we could ever hope for or merit.

"Fortunate the persecuted" - Matthew, like Luke, develops this last beatitude, for, no matter wherever we are, we cannot live the Gospel without suffering persecution.

ayun lang. trabaho muna uli. ^_^

God bless everyone! Smile. God everywhere, in all, knows all. [Psalm 139] ^_^

movie lines..

i may have posted some of these already..

i did some cleaning last night (because i'm already bleeding from 131. sigh.) and i saw some of these old notes.. lines from movies/books/television show that caught my attention, moved me, or simply made me think. ^_^

>>movies<<

Tuck Everlasting:

*For some, time passes slowly; an hour can seem an eternity. For others, there's never enough.

*Don't fear death, but rather the unlived life. You don't have to live forever. You just have to live.

Lord of the Rings:

"If you trust nothing else, trust this, trust US!" -Arwen to Aragon-

*A woman's heart is a sea of deep secrets.

The Time Machine:

*Nothing can ever change what has happened.

*One generation passeth and another cometh, but the earth abide us forever.

*There are things better left unsaid.

*We don't dwell in the past, we remember them.. with peace.

*Sometimes we need to accept what's happening to us even though we don't want to. Another times, we have to fight even if we are afraid.

*When the truth is horrible, it will haunt your dreams for all time.

*You are haunted by the two most terrible words: "What If?"

Sweet Home Alabama:

*We all have our little secrets.

"So you have a past.. I mean, who doesn't? What I need to know is if there is a place for me in your future." -Andrew- [aww! ^_^]

Awakenings:

*The human spirit is more powerful than any chemical drug, and it's the one thing that should be nourished.

A Cinderella Story:

*Nothing is impossible if you just believe.

Gods and Generals:

*War is the sum of all evils.

*As a Christian man, my first allegiance is to God.

"..my religious belief teaches me to feel as safe in battle as in bed. God has fixed the time for my death, I do not concern myself with that." -General Thomas Jackson- [such great faith!]

*You (God) find(s) the truth in the deepest pit of darkness.

*We must never ignore the unknown or the unpredictable.

Big Fish:

*Sometimes, the only way to catch an uncatchable woman is to offer her a wedding ring. [haha. is that so? nakakuha tuloy ng idea yung iba dyan. hehe.]

*Having a kid changes everything. [so they say. ^_^]

*It came to me that the reason for my growth is that I'm meant for larger things. [yeah!]

*The more difficult something becomes, the more rewarding it is in the end. [i also think so.]

*It's rude to talk about religion. You never know who you are going to offend. [keyword: respect.]

*They say when you meet the love of your life, time stops. And that's true! What they don't tell you is that once time starts again, it moves extra fast to catch up.

*I may not have much.. but I have more determination than any man you're likely to meet.

*The biggest fish in the river gets that way by never being caught.

*Everyday is a new adventure.

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>>TV Show<<

Forever in My Heart [GMA7]

*The sweetest sound in this world is the one that only the heart can hear.

*Sometimes you need to get lost to find love.

*Truth makes love grow. LIES KILL IT! [i put emphasis on this because this is very much true. take it from me. *wink*]

*When you are in love, you can endure any pain the world throws at you. [but the human heart also has a limit. too much pain kills.. or.. it can make you numb.]

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>>book<<

Eleven Minutes [Paulo Coelho]

*When we meet someone and fall in love, we have a sense that the whole universe is on our side.

*How is it possible for the beauty that was there only minutes before to vanish so quickly?

*Life moves very fast. It rushes us from heaven to hell in a matter of seconds.

*Making mistakes is just part of life.

*Sometimes, you get no second chance. [true! so love well. live well. never take things and people for granted.]

*If I must be faithful to someone or something, then I have, first of all, to be faithful to myself. If I'm looking for true love, I first have to get the mediocre loves out of my system.

*The little experience of life I've had has taught me that no one owns anything.. that everything is an illusion.

*Anyone who has lost something they thought was theirs finally comes to realize that nothing really belongs to them.

*It's best to live as if today were the first (or last) day of my life.

*Dreaming is very pleasant as long as you are not forced to put your dreams into practice.

*I can choose either to be a victim of the world or an adventurer in search of a treasure. It's all a question of how I view my life. [i agree!]

*The roller coaster is my life. Life is a fast, dizzying game; life is a parachute jump, it's taking chances, falling over and getting up again; it's mountaineering, it's wanting to get to the very top of yourself and to feel angry and disappointed when you don't manage it.

*If I believe that the track is my destiny and that God is in charge of the machine, then the nightmare becomes thrilling. It becomes exactly what it is, a roller coaster ride, a safe, reliable toy, which will eventually stop, but while the journey lasts, I must look at the surrounding landscape and whoop with excitement.

*Life always waits for some crisis to occur before revealing itself as its most brilliant.

*It is not time that change man, nor knowledge; the only thing that can change someone's mind is LOVE.

*That's what the world is like: people talk as if they knew everything, but if you dare to ask a question, they don't know anything.

*Freedom only exist when love is present. [c'mon! love again. all we need is love, love, love. ^_^]

*In love, no one can harm anyone else; we are each of us responsible for our own feelings and cannot blame someone else for what we feel.

*This is the true experience of freedom: having the most important thing in the world without owning it.

*Passion sends us signals that guide us through our lives, and its up to us to interpret those signs.

*Considering the way the world is, one happy day is almost a miracle.

*The great aim of every human being is to understand the meaning of total love. Love is not to be found in someone else, but in ourselves; we simply awaken it. But in order to do that, we need the other person. The universe only makes sense when we have someone to share our feelings with. [i told you all we need is love. ^_^]

*But if we are talking in terms of making progress in life, we must understand that 'good enough' is very different from 'best.'

*Life is too short or too long for me to allow myself the luxury of living it so badly.