isn't it ironic?

its like rain on your wedding day
its a free ride when you've already paid
its a good advice that you just didn't take..

i hate them! i hate those people na member ng Alpha Kapal Muks! grabe, to the highest level ang kakapalan ng mukha.. oh well, wala na nga siguro talaga akong magagawa pa but to accept the fact that this world is not kind anymore.. this is such a cruel and harsh world.. survival of the fittest is the prevailing principle.

i got the title of this post from alanis morisette's song, which i think best suits my mood.. its the perfect song that could express how exactly I feel right now..it describes the situation i'm currently in to.. IRONIC..

what does that word mean? ironic.. its synonymous with the terms 'sardonic', 'sarcastic', 'wry'.. its when you don't get what you deserve or what you expect, seems like everything's a mess.. the situation turns out to be the exact opposite of what should happen.. some kind of black humor.. black in the sense that there's something bad about it, something which the humor tries to hide.. that's life.. funny, yet deceiving..

think about this as an example:
a broken heart is the single greatest pain you will ever have to endure, in fact, the most hurtful thing you can imagine, and the one who commits this emotional crime is not someone you hate; its not even someone you dislike.. no, because the only person who is capable of breaking your heart is the one who holds it precariously in his hands, the one with whom you have shared your dreams, your secrets, your fears - the one you love more than anybody else in the world - and therein lies the irony..

why am i saying this? why am i talking about irony and all these painful stuffs?

the answer lies in the essence of nothingness..

there's no special reason, whatsoever.. i just wanna express how i feel about some things which i can't control..

i'm just confused, a bit disappointed perhaps.. makes me want to vanish.. away from the hurtful realities of the earth..

if not for some people i care for and who have also shown the beauty of the world, i would say that i don't want to belong here anymore..

i've suffered enough.. nakakapagod din pala.. lalo na pag sobrang daming irony sa life mo.. you can't help but ask why.. why do these things happen when you've been the kindest person you could ever be?

i feel that i don't deserve this..

i've tried my best to be as patient, as understanding, as kind as i could be.. but unfortunately, people took advantage of my 'silence'.. i don't fight back.. i just cry my heart out, talk to God, and pray for more strength..

pero parang sobra na.. hindi na tama.. masyado na akong nasasaktan.. and what hurts me more is the fact that the people who have failed me are those whom i trusted and held dear..

but i guess i have learned my lessons..

1. don't ever give your full trust to anyone
2. nobody will ever be your 'best' friend
3. the only person you could rely on is yourself
4. if you do good to others, that doesn't mean they'll do good too
5. if you treat others well, never expect them to treat you the same
6. life isn't always fair.. it is never fair
7. always expect for the worst things to happen, so you won't get disappointed
8. no one could love you as much as God can

may sense naman di ba?

God bless everyone! =)