some thoughts..

"why do most people seem to fall for their friend at one point or another?
its because we see a great person.. someone who knows us inside and out, someone who's been there when we were down, someone who knows what makes us laugh and what makes us cry, someone who cares. we see the perfect someone in our friend, but what we don't see is that as soon as we take that next step, they will turn into someone we never knew at all.. pathetic truth.."

is it? i don't think so.. i believe this is what happens: we create an image of our ideal man/woman and we expect our special someone to be exactly what we want. tapos pag hindi nya na-meet yung expectations natin, we get disappointed.. tapos iiwan natin siya without realizing na hindi naman niya kasalanan na hindi siya gaya ng iniisip natin.. diba?

hay.. enough na.. tapos na ako sa mga ganyang usapan.. hehe..

nanood nga pala kame nina mama ng 'The Punisher' and here are some of the best lines from the movie..

"Ignorance is no excuse." - Mr. Saint

"Vaya con Dios. [Go with God]" - Candelaria

"Upset? Is that the word? I used to get upset when I had a flat tire. I used to get upset when a plane was delayed. I used to get upset when the Yankees won the series. So if that's what 'upset' means, then how do I feel now? If you know the word, tell me.. because I don't." - Frank Castle/The Punisher

"Don't let your memories kill you." - Joanne

"I know what it's like to try and make your memories go away. You can make new memories, good ones. Good memories can save your life." - Joanne

"I leave this as a declaration of intent so no one will be confused. Number One: Sic vis pacem para bellum. If you want peace, prepare for war. Number Two: Frank Castle is dead. He died with his family. Number Three: In certain extreme situations, the law is inadequate. In order to shame its inadequacy, it is necessary to act outside the law, to pursue natural justice. This is not vengeance. Revenge is not a valid motive, it's an emotional response. No, not vengeance.. punishment!" - Frank Castle/The Punisher

"Those who do evil to others - the killers, the rapists, psychos, sadists, you will come to know me well. Frank Castle is dead. Call me.. The Punisher!" - The Punisher

recent quotes in my inbox..

have to erase them now but i don't have any more space in my notebook so i'll just post them here..

~*all your life you're marching onto your own tune.. one day, you'll be surprised to hear someone playing another tune that blends beautifully with yours.. that's true love.. it's not giving up who you are.. it is taking your identity and uniting it with someone else..*~

~*hurt: it's the reaction of the heart when it disagrees with what the mind tells us.. the fact that we're hurting means we know what to do, we just can't accept it..*~

~*one grows distant from another not because of hatred, but because of indifference, but because of fear.. there's the fear that the hurt gets greater as one gets closer; a recognition of the tendency to fall deeply, and consequently drown in a quicksand of stupid irrationalities.. sometimes, what drives one away is not the absence of emotion, but the overwhelming presence of it..*~

~*according to aerodynamics, bees can't fly.. because their small wings are fragile for their heavy bodies.. but they're able to.. because they believe they can..*~

~*we've always known what hurts, still, we haven't learned to stay away from such.. because as painful as it is, if that's the only way to feel their presence, we always give in.. we still check on them every now and then, just to see what's been happening since they left.. that even if sometimes we say 'i just wanna see him/her happy', deep in our hearts, there's this flicker of hope.. so then, its true, that the more you think you are healing, the deeper the wound is searing..*~

~*sometimes, you will feel like you just wanna cry all day.. collect all the pain the whole day brought you.. fill your heart with anger.. internalize every tear that fell from your eyes.. and feel numb about it.. when this happens, close your eyes and cry as much as you want to and end it with a smile.. life is tough.. but prove that you're tougher..*~

~*life has great options, but you don't always have to pick what seem to be the best.. sometimes, the best and the perfect aren't what makes you happy..*~

text..

a nice message from a very good friend.. >>thanks chai!<<

..when you're hurt, its ok to flirt, to date, to hate, to mingle with other people, to drink, to cry, to laugh, out loud, to scream, and to dance wild.. you know why? because when you're hurt, you don't owe anybody any explanation on how you choose to repair what that person broke. Live your life as you wish.. until you're whole again.

i decided to pass on the message and one of my friends replied: "parang hindi ikaw 'to unai"

binasa ko uli yung message and i realized, hmm.. he's right, hindi nga ako 'to.. so i texted him back.. "bakit ano ba dapat? when you're hurt, just cry and cry and cry? matagal na akong ganun.. at hanggang ngayon, ganun pa rin.. front lang yung text message na yun.. kunwari strong ako"

hay.. oo nga, i'm just pretending to be strong pero ang totoo, isa pa rin akong iyaking bata.. pero ok na rin yun.. at least sarili ko lang pinahihirapan ako.. ulo ko lang ang sasakit, mata ko lang ang mamamaga.. wala na akong iba pang nasasaktan.. and i guess that made me better (still) than anybody else.. =)

ayan na naman ako, dadaldal na naman.. tama na nga.. tulog na muna ang prinsesa..

bukas, panibagong araw na naman.. oops.. bagong araw na nga pala ngayon.. past 12 na..

gandang umaga sa lahat! =)