email message

Read only if you have time for God.
Let me tell you, make sure you read all the way to the bottom. I almost deleted this email but I was blessed when I got to the end.

God, when I received this e-mail, I thought...
I don't have time for this... And, this is really inappropriate during work.

Then, I realized that this kind of thinking is... Exactly, what has caused lot of the problems in our world today.

We try to keep God in church on Sunday morning...
Maybe, Sunday night...
And, the unlikely event of a midweek service.
We do like to have Him around during sickness...

And, of course, at funerals.

However, we don't have time, or room, for Him during work or play...

Because.. That's the part of our lives we think... We can, and should, handle on our own.

May God forgive me for ever thinking...
That... there is a time or place where..

HE is not to be FIRST in my life.

We should always have time to remember all HE has done for us.

If, You aren't ashamed to do this...

Please follow the directions.

Jesus said, "If you are ashamed of me, I will be ashamed of you before my Father."

Not ashamed?

Pass this on ONLY IF YOU MEAN IT!!

Yes, I do Love God.

HE is my source of existence and Savior.

He keeps me functioning each and every day. Without Him, I will be nothing. But, with Christ, HE strengthens me. (Phil 4:13)

This is the simplest test.

If You Love God... And, are not ashamed of all the marvelous things HE has done for you...

Send this to ten people and the person who sent it to you!

Now do you have the time to pass it on?

Make sure that you scroll through to the end.

Easy vs. Hard

Why is it so hard to tell the truth but Yet so easy to tell a lie?

Why are we so sleepy in church but Right when the sermon is over we suddenly wake up?

Why is it so easy to delete a Godly e-mail, but yet we forward all of the nasty ones?

Of all the free gifts we may receive, Prayer is the very best one....

There are no costs, but wonderful rewards... GOD BLESS!

Notes: Isn't it funny how simple it is for people to trash God and then wonder why the world's going to hell.

Isn't it funny how someone can say "I believe in God" but still follow Satan (who, by the way, also "believes" in God).

Isn't it funny how you can send a thousand jokes through e-mail and they spread like wildfire, but when you start sending messages regarding the Lord, people think twice about sharing?

Isn't it funny how when you go to forward this message, you will not send it to many on your address list because you're not sure what they believe, or what they will think of you for sending it to them.

Isn't it funny how I can be more worried about what other people think of me than what God thinks of me.

I pray, for everyone who sends this to their entire address book, they will be blessed by God in a way special for them.

And send it back to the person who sent it, to let them know that indeed it was sent out to many more.

one week isn't enough for a vacation..

.. I wanted to have a break for a little longer but at the same time, I'm also getting a bit bored doing nothing.. I still have three days to relax (?) and feel the summer heat.. yes, I can feel the heat.. and it's burning me..

hmm.. how long have I been silent? According to my files, the last time I wrote a blog entry was on April 11, Wednesday.. well, I’ll start from where I ended..

April 11, Wednesday:
I went to the Chikka office for the orientation regarding my internship (which would start on Monday, April 23). I believe I went online after that.. Anyway, the orientation was fine. I was able to meet the other interns and I was glad that Angel was there. She’s also from UP.. there are four of us in the group under Sir Victor, and the other two are from DLSU.. we just signed some papers, and Ms. Mia, briefed us with what we’re supposed to do during our internship. We also talked about our schedules and settled other issues..

April 12, Thursday:
We had our music min practice.. and the only bad thing about it was the invasion of my greatest enemies – mosquitoes..

April 13, the dreaded Friday the 13th:
I went to school to register for the summer classes. Our practicum isn’t required; it’s an elective so we have to enroll so we can get the credits from it.. there were some ‘nice’ things that happened on my way to UP.. ask kuya ian/tweet2 if you want to know what those things were.. =) however, while there were wonderful things coming my way, there were also some bad news waiting for my arrival.. I didn’t find my name in the eligibility list, which makes me ineligible to enroll.. “good heavens”, I thought.. the reason stated was “did not satisfy contract” which was a big mistake because I know for a fact that I did.. but of course, words aren’t enough.. what they need were documents to prove that I have satisfied what was written on the contract.. good thing I bought my completion form and some of my class cards.. but, there’s still a problem, one of my instructors haven’t submitted the class cards yet.. hmm.. do I need to go into details? It’s quite long.. again, ask tweet2 for more info.. ask alpha for she was with me for the longest time.. by the way, that girl had also her share of struggles.. and so I asked her if she wanted to go with me to Quiapo.. for some reason, Quiapo has been my sanctuary during the frustrating, difficult, and trying times like these.. we hoped to attend the mass but we were too late so we stayed at the adoration chapel instead.. there, we breathed out everything.. all the frustrations, depressions and whatever “-ions” we had.. as I expected, I felt a lot better after crying my heart out.. and I believe alpha felt the same.. =) it was a tiring day.. and when I got home, I can’t do anything but lie down and sleep..

Oops, I forgot to say: I’ve been worried about Friday the 13th since my grandfather died (April 13, 2001).. but I guess things have changed and now, I’m no longer afraid of Friday the 13th..

April 14, Saturday:
I had my “girl thing” and I was bedridden.. I must say that it was among the most uncomfortable days I’ve ever had.. I suffered from ulcer and dysmenorrhea.. you could guess that I was really having a hard time..

April 15, Sunday:
Again, I stayed in bed all throughout the day.. I wasn’t able to attend the mass and to serve as part of the choir.. =(

I spent time watching “blaze of glory” and I had an instant crush on JC Chavez Jr. he’s everything I want.. haha! “he has the looks of an actor but the punch of a killer” as commented by Quinito Henson and Chino Trinidad.. he hasn’t lost any game and out of his 31 wins, 24 were by TKO.. he’s really admirable!

April 16, Monday:
I went to school again to go on with my enrollment (after getting the required documents from Ms. Mia of Chikka) and through God’s grace, I was able to finish the registration.. binoy was with me and we really had a great time together.. we ate ice cream and stayed at the track oval while waiting for chai.. there, we talked about almost everything under the sun, love stuffs in particular.. when chai arrived, we ordered halo-halo from LKB and bonded again at the track oval..

Sarap talaga ng feeling na kasama ang barkada.. and although there were only three of us, we were still able to enjoy each other’s company.. =)

April 17 & 18 (Tuesday and Wednesday):
I did nothing aside from house chores and reading the PDL..

April 19, Thursday:
Some bad things really annoyed me.. kuya ian knows that.. but my day ended beautifully as I was able to spend the night with my brothers and sisters in the community.. after the music min practice, we went to kuya tirso’s house and ate the usual meal – pansit.. at syempre kasama na ang kwentuhan dun.. =)

Tagal ko na rin palang nawala sa service.. well, sabi nila.. kung sa bagay, na-miss ko na rin sila.. hmm.. excited na ako sa outing.. sana talaga makasama ang karamihan lalo na si kuya ian, ang aking paboritong kuya.. =)

April 20, Friday:
I just finished writing about what had happened during the previous week.. and this time, text messages na naman ang idadaldal ko..

I have 17 messages in my inbox and 14 of those are quotes about life, love, and some other things.. I find every quote worthy to be mentioned so here they go:

*it’s better to have nobody than somebody who is half yours, half there or doesn’t want to be there, or is there and then suddenly disappears*
>>get’s nyo ba? Honestly, I’m not sure if I agree to it.. parang oo na parang hindi eh..

*when someone annoys you, it takes 42 muscles in your face to frown.. but it only takes 4 muscles to extend your arm and slap the idiot on the face*
>>now, this one made me smile.. but I don’t think I’ll do that.. I’m not really that kind.. when someone annoys me, I usually lock myself up in a room, and cry my heart out while talking to my God.. in that case, hindi ako mapapa-away..

*GF: ihatid mo q
BF: wala aqong pera, inoperahan c lola, wala pang padala si dad
GF: ayaw mo? Hindi ka mka2score sken
BF: aba’y tingnan mo nga naman.. may naipit plng 200 sa wallet q*
>>ehem.. sino kayang natatamaan? Hehe..

*plenty of people miss their share of happiness, not because they never found it, but because they did not slow down to enjoy it*
>>true!

*no one is born happy.. but all of us are born with the ability to create happiness*
>>true again!

*what if you don’t believe in love.. then someone teaches you how.. then you fall for him and you believed.. but.. what if he’s not supposed to love you.. only to teach you?*
>>ouch! That hurts.. hanggang dun lang ang comment ko..

*sometimes it’s not the tears that measure the pain, sometimes, it’s the smile*
>>agree!

*pag may mahal ka, be contented. Wag ka maghanap ng bagay na wala sa kanya.. wag mo sya icocompare sa iba.. kasi mas masarap magmahal nang kontento kahit di kumpleto, kesa kumpleto nga, di naman totoo*
>>sana marealize ‘to ng mga dapat maka-realize..

*if you want pain.. if you like tears..if you need sleepless nights.. and suffering.. find a friend.. and fall in love.. *
>>I don’t think so.. I don’t usually fall for a friend.. in fact, I haven’t done that yet.. I’ve fallen in love with just one person.. and he wasn’t my friend.. although we became the best of friends while we were together.. hindi ko lang talaga tipo yung ganun.. pag kaibigan, kaibigan lang.. and based sa experience ko, kadalasan, nagkakaroon ng lamat ang friendship once na nagsabi na yung guy na he has some other feelings for me.. alam ni binoy yun, di ba? *wink*

Here’s my own version of that quote: if you want pain.. if you like tears..if you need sleepless nights.. and suffering.. find an insensitive, selfish person.. and fall in love..

*the advantage of having a bad memory is that you can enjoy the same good things for the first time several times..*
>>hmm.. no comment..

And last but not the least, eto ang pinakamatindi..
*IF THE HEART IS ONE OF THE STRONGEST MUSCLES IN THE HUMAN BODY, THEN WHY IS IT SO EASY TO BREAK? =’(*
>>bakit nga kaya?

At para wakasan ang napakahabang post na ito, here’s something which inspired me.. I got this from kuya ian..

"from your view point, everything's a mess but from my view point, everything's perfect"
- God (Joan of Arcadia)


P.S. if you’ll notice some errors, whether typographical or grammatical, pagpasensyahan nyo na.. medyo nanlalabo na rin kasi ang paningin ko at pagod na ang mga mata ko para mag-proofread pa.. salamat sa pang-unawa.. God bless everyone! =)

text..

a nice message from a very good friend.. >>thanks chai!<<

..when you're hurt, its ok to flirt, to date, to hate, to mingle with other people, to drink, to cry, to laugh, out loud, to scream, and to dance wild.. you know why? because when you're hurt, you don't owe anybody any explanation on how you choose to repair what that person broke. Live your life as you wish.. until you're whole again.

i decided to pass on the message and one of my friends replied: "parang hindi ikaw 'to unai"

binasa ko uli yung message and i realized, hmm.. he's right, hindi nga ako 'to.. so i texted him back.. "bakit ano ba dapat? when you're hurt, just cry and cry and cry? matagal na akong ganun.. at hanggang ngayon, ganun pa rin.. front lang yung text message na yun.. kunwari strong ako"

hay.. oo nga, i'm just pretending to be strong pero ang totoo, isa pa rin akong iyaking bata.. pero ok na rin yun.. at least sarili ko lang pinahihirapan ako.. ulo ko lang ang sasakit, mata ko lang ang mamamaga.. wala na akong iba pang nasasaktan.. and i guess that made me better (still) than anybody else.. =)

ayan na naman ako, dadaldal na naman.. tama na nga.. tulog na muna ang prinsesa..

bukas, panibagong araw na naman.. oops.. bagong araw na nga pala ngayon.. past 12 na..

gandang umaga sa lahat! =)

walang pamagat..

kagabi, pinahiran ko ng gentian ang aking singaw.. ilang araw na rin akong pinahihirapan nito.. ang hirap magsalita dahil tumatama ang sugat sa ipin ko.. at ang resulta: lalo pang lumalaki at pumupula..

bago ko pa man din ipahid ang gentian, tumutulo na ang luha ko.. partly kasi natatakot akong baka masakit at hindi ko kayanin ang hapdi.. isa pang dahilan eh naiiyak na talaga ako..

narinig kong sinabi ng aking kapatid: "ate, pisikal lang yan, mas mahirap gamutin at mas masakit ang emotional na karamdaman."

mas lalo akong naiyak.. tama siya, mas mahirap ngang gamutin ang sugatang damdamin.. hay.. kung pwede lang mapawi ng halo-halo sa chowking ang lungkot at sakit na nararamdaman ko.. nararamdaman ng mga tao.. kung mapapahiran lang ng ice cream at cake ang mga luha.. ayos na sana eh.. kaso lang hindi ganun kadali yun.. hindi ganun kadaling makalimot.. hindi rin ganun kadaling maghilom ang sugat na dulot ng malalim na saksak sa damdamin..

ano ba naman unaiza, pitong buwan na ang nakakaraan, hanggang ngayon ba naman hindi ka pa tapos sa mga drama mong yan?

siguro nga hindi pa.. at para atang hindi rin ito matatapos ngayon o bukas o sa susunod na buwan.. pero hanggang kailan ako ganito? hanggang kailan ako iiyak?

marahil nga ay nagawa ko na ang pinakamaling desisyon na pwede kong magawa sa tanang buhay ko..

nagkamali nga ata ako.. kung maaari ko lang sanang ibalik ang panahon, patigilin ang oras, at ulitin lahat ng masasayang alala at karanasan..

sa totoo lang, ngayon ko lang naramdaman ang ganitong pagsisisi.. nagkamali nga talaga ako.. hindi naman ako magsisisi kung tama ang naging desisyon ko..

sabi ni leyn sa isang text, pagkakataon daw kung matatagpuan mo ang isang pag-ibig.. nasa iyong pagpili kung tatagal ito o hindi..

sa buhay natin, laging may pagkakataon at laging may sitwasyon na kailangan nating piliing mangyari..

nagkamali ako sa pinili ko..

hindi ba sapat ang pagsisisi.. sabi nila lagi raw nasa huli ang pagsisisi.. oo nga naman, paano ka magsisisi kung hindi mo pa alam ang magiging kahinatnan ng desisyon mo..

pero ngayon ngang nagsisisi na ako, sapat na ba yun? sa nangyayari kasi parang hindi pa..

kailangan ko ba talagang pagdaanan ang lahat ng ito? wala bang kapatawaran ang ginawa ko?

sa paghahangad kong maayos ang lahat, lalo lang naging komplikado.. at ngayon, hindi ko na mabawi ang naging desisyon ko.. wala akong ibang masisi kundi sarili ko.. ganun din siya, ako ang sinisisi niya.. sino pa nga bang may kasalanan? ako naman talaga.. ako ang unang sumuko..

sana naging matatag na lang ako.. sana hindi ako nawalan ng pag-asa..

ngayon, wala na talaga akong aasahan.. kahit anong dasal ko, hindi Niya ako pinakikinggan.. siguro sabi Niya, "ginusto mo yan, ikaw ang nagdesisyon niyan, ngayon, magdusa ka."

sa buong buhay ko, ngayon lang ako nakaramdam ng ganitong pagkatalo at pagkalungkot..

hindi ko alam kung may pag-asa pa.. ayokong mawalan ng pag-asa pero ayoko na ring umasa.. pero hanggang kailan ako masasaktan?

akala ko dati tapos na ako sa ganitong drama.. hindi pa pala.. mukhang hindi talaga ako titigilan ng nakaraan..

maraming "sana", maraming "sayang".. pero ano pa nga bang magagawa ko?

sa tingin ko naman nagawa ko na ang lahat ng pwede kong magawa para maayos lang.. kahit na magmukha akong tanga.. kahit na ibaba ko ang sarili ko.. pero wala pa ring epekto.. ganun ba talaga kabigat ang kasalanan ko?

wala na ba talaga akong pwedeng gawin? nahihirapan na ako.. matagal na.. ang pinaniwalaan kong paraan para maayos ang gulong ito ay hindi naging tagumpay..

hanggang kailan ako ganito? hanggang saan ako dadalhin ng ganitong pakiramdam? hanggang kailan ako iiyak?

hindi ko rin alam ang kasagutan..

c'mon! emo raw ako..

from quizilla.com - what kind of music are you?

Emo - You are more easily hurt than you like to admit. A close relationship would help a lot, but you are usually too afraid to get close to anyone.life is hard, and sometimes its easier just to give in. Death Cab For Cutie, and Dashboard Confessional both express your personality through song and lyric.

Lenten reflections

lenten reflections

i felt hell during the past two weeks.. my semester ended just last wednesday (april 4) and it was only now that i could say that i've really had a break..

last wednesday i posted something about winning and losing in my blogs but i didn't give details.. i decided not to talk much about it.. not that i'm not over it yet but because i think there are better issues i should talk about.. nonetheless, i would include a bit about it here as i share some of the reflections that i had during the lenten season.

1. in life, you win some, you lose some..
>>i lost my first flash disk when i got hold of the penshoppe denimlab rockfest cd after buying a blouse, a shirt for my brother, and a bag..
>>last wednesday, Chikka Asia hired me as an intern but on the same day

well, i guess that's the way life goes.. God gives us enough victories to make us happy, and enough defeats to make us humble.. i realized that indeed, i've grown up as a person.. unlike before, i can now handle tough situations like i've mentioned above.. i no longer cry like a baby.. i've learned to let go and accept the things that have happened and would happen in the future..

sabi nga ni erap, weather weather lang yan.. kung hindi ukol, hindi bubukol.. siguro hindi lang talaga para sken yung flash disk na yun.. anyway, napalitan ko naman sya eh.. ng mas malaking memory.. 512mb lang yung unang flash disk ko, ngayon, 1gb na.. at yung naging kapalit ng chikka, ok na rin yun.. hindi naman ganun kalaki ang epekto niya.. sana lang wala ng hingin pang ibang requirements yung chikka.. briefing namin sa wednesday and i hope they would no longer ask us to submit additional documents..

2. loving isn't easy..
>>hindi totoo na masarap magmahal.. dahil ang pagmamahal ay may katumbas na sakit at hirap..

my brother and i participated in this year's penitential walk to antipolo.. we've been doing it for 3 years now and this year, nathan walked with us.. first time naming naglakad na walang pahinga.. sa tikling lang kami tumigil para kumain at magpahinga.. after regaining our strength, naglakad na uli kami hanggang sa 14th station of the cross..

i got my second reflection from the reflection in one of the stations na dinaanan namin..

sabi raw ng mga romantiko, masarap magmahal.. but we must be aware that loving also requires getting hurt.. yes, requirement talagang masaktan ka.. sabi nga dun sa reflection, kung madali lang daw para sa atin ang magmahal, baka raw hindi talaga tayo nagmamahal.. bakit hindi nga naman natin subukang mahalin ang mga taong hindi tayo kayang mahalin, mga taong hindi tayo pinapansin, mga taong walang pakialam at walang pagpapahalaga sa atin.. mahirap di ba? but that's the true measure of love.. loving the unlovable, loving without conditions..

sabi sa isang text message na natanggap ko from a friend.. loving unconditionally enables you to say "i love you but you don't have to love me back, i'll be fine."

ang sakit, ang hirap, pero ganun talaga eh..

"if loving means being loved, then i'm not loving enough.. if loving means being special, then i barely love.. but if loving means getting hurt, i guess i'm loving too much"

yes, indeed i'm loving too much.. and i'm fine with that.. at least i know what true love means.. and that makes me different from some people i know who don't take love seriously.. who are afraid of commitment..

there's this guy who told his ex that he still loves her.. the girl wants him back and is willing to "start all over again" but the guy said that he's fine with what they both have.. friendship to the next level.. sort of an open relationship.. he's not ready for a commitment yet.. but is love not enough to keep a commitment?

sad but true, the word "love" is already overused.. people say "i love you" frequently but they're not saying it from the heart.. and if they do, they don't really mean it because they don't understand what love is..

buti na lang hindi ako kabilang sa kanila..

mahirap magmahal lalo na ng taong hindi kayang suklian yung pagmamahal na binibigay mo.. gaya na lang ni Hesus.. minahal niya tayo, he suffered and died for us.. but are we loving Him well?

the following are among the questions Monsi has imposed during his homily last thursday:
*ano ang estado natin sa buhay para mahalin at patawarin tayo ng Diyos?
*ano ang estado natin sa buhay para pagkalooban tayo ng mga biyaya?
*anong ginagawa natin para mapasalamatan ang Panginoon sa lahat ng ginawa at binigay niya despite our unworthiness?

for the last part, i would like to share these beautiful text messages i have received during the Holy Week..

>>in the end what would matter is not what you bought but what you built; not what you got but what you gave; not your success but your significance; not what you learned but what you taught; not your competence but your character; not how long you will be remembered but by whom and for what. CHOOSE TO LIVE A LIFE THAT MATTERS.<<

>>there was a man who saw a scorpion almost drowning in water. he decided to save it by stretching out his finger, but the scorpion stung him. the man still tried, but the scorpion stung him again. another man nearby told him to stop saving the scorpion. but the man said: "it's the nature of the scorpion to sting. it's my nature to love. why should i give up my nature to love just because it's the nature of the scorpion to sting?" DON'T GIVE UP CARING, DON'T GIVE UP LOVING,DON'T GIVE UP YOUR GOODNESS, EVEN WHEN EVERYONE AROUND YOU STINGS.<<

>>why did God make the world round? so that no matter how small or insignificant you think you are, wherever you stand on it, you're still on top of the world.<<

>>in God's eyes love is always present. in God's heart forgiveness is always there. in God's embrace no one is ever alone.<<

>>He had no servants, yet they called Him Master. No college degree, yet they called Him Teacher. No medicines, yet they called Him Healer. No army, yet kings feared Him. He won no military battles, yet He conquered the world. He committed no crime, yet they crucified Him. He was buried in a tomb, yet He lives today. Feel honored to serve such a Leader.<<

i hope we all had a meaningful Lenten season..

God bless everyone! =)