On this day

God wants me to know....

...... that God has an important purpose for me, and made everything possible for me to succeed.

"That's not to say it's an easy purpose, or a convenient one. It might very well seem hard or even impossible, but it only looks that way. The truth is that one day you will look back and see how all the pieces fit together. And how your life has been a complete and utter success." - Facebook App

And this is the exact message that I need. Indeed, God knows. ^_^

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nasanay lang ako na after manood ng One Liter of Tears e mag-oonline at magbblog bago matulog. :D

hmm. ano bang sasabihin ko ngayon? wala naman. magkukwento na lang muna ako.

once upon a time, in a land so far away, there lived a beautiful princess...

wahaha! nagkwento talaga??? at mukhang fairy tale pa ang balak ikwento. hehe. :D

seryoso na. ^_^

halos buong araw na umulan. at hanggang sa ngayon e umuulan pa with matching kulog at kidlat na super hate ko. kaya naman gusto ko ng tapusin ito, pumasok na sa kwarto at matulog. hehe. takot lang talaga ako sa kidlat. at lahat ng malapit sken, alam yun. (kasi may secret ako, secret lang ha? ganito kasi yun, nung buntis si mama saken, muntik na siyang tamaan ng kidlat, AS IN! kaya yun, takot ako sa kidlat. hehe. may konek ba yun? ewan. basta ganun. :D)

anyway, nagugustuhan ko na ang Book ni Tobit sa Old Testament. dun kasi uli galing yung 1st reading for today. nakakatuwa kasi tungkol naman yun kay Sara (from yesterday's reading) at sa anak ni Tobit na si Tobias. remember may curse si Sara? anyone she marries dies on the eve of the wedding. hanggang sa eto na nga, dumating si Tobias. umm, i suggest basahin niyo na lang yung kwento na nila. cool, promise! hindi boring. tinapos ko nga hanggang dulo ng chapter 10 e. kahit hindi na yun kasama sa reading for today. hehe. nakaka-inspire din kasi si Tobias talaga yung nakalaan para kay Sara. so sa mga single pa diyan, gaya ko, don't despair, God is still preparing the best for us kaya wait lang tayo (patiently and prayerfully). ^_^ onga pala, speaking of waiting, nakakatawa yung result ng quiz sa Facebook. haha. akalain niyong December 31, 2010 daw ang wedding date ko?! harhar. how would that be possible e wala pa nga akong boyfriend?! haller?! kaya sa groom-to-be ko, paramdam ka na, dali! malelate na tayo sa kasal naten! haha. :))

ay onga pala, eto na yung chapters. pasensya naman, muntik ko ng makalimutan. pasaway na facebook kasi yan. haha. sinisi pa ang facebook. pero promise, nakakatuwang sumagot ng quizzes dun. :D

Tobit 6:10-11, 7:1.9-17; 8:4-9.

ayun. tapos, ano pa bang nangyari? hmm. after lunch, kahit medyo maulan pa rin at medyo feeling ko tinatrangkaso na ako (minus lagnat), humayo (naks! ang lalim, humayo talaga. hehe.) ako at tumungo sa munisipyo ng Cainta. kukuha dapat ako ng Certified True Copy ng Birth Certificate ko kasi hindi tinanggap yung Authenticated Birth Certificate ko sa DFA (malabo raw kasi yung surname. fine.). sa mga hindi nakakaalam, sa Cainta talaga ako pinanganak. dun kasi kame dati. sa St. Francis. pagdating ko sa Registrar, nalungkot naman ako sa sinabi ni Ate. "Naku, 1986 ka, wala na kameng record niyan e. Kasama sa mga nasunog. 1985, 1986, 1987." waaaaaaaaaaaaah! ang saklap naman! alam kong nagkaroon ng sunog dati sa munisipyo pero ni sa hinagap e hindi ko man lang naisip na kasama sa mga nasunog yung Birth Certificate ko. kamusta naman yun? bakit naman birth year ko pa??!! :(( pero syempre, wala na akong magagawa pa. hay. so kelangan kong pumunta sa NSO. goodluck! hindi ba't napakaraming tao lagi dun?! at nag-uuulan pa. goodluck talaga! oh well, that's life. :D

ano ang mga nagpasaya sa araw ko? mga tao, mga bagay, kung ano-ano lang. hehe. mababaw lang naman kaligayahan ko e.

salamat pala kay ate ghen. grabe, kinarir namin ang pagdadaldalan sa telepono kanina. haha.

ayan. yan lang. walang kwenta no? hehe. e kasi naman pag dumaldal pa ako ng dumaldal, malamang hindi na ako matapos. hehe.

onga pala, nasa Pilipinas na si Mancao. tapos 29 na ang confirmed cases ng influenza A(H1N1), 2 dun ay exchange students sa DLSU. tapos may tumamang buhawi sa Barangay UP Campus, along C. P. Garcia. at ayon sa PAGASA, katumbas daw yun ng hangin ng signal # 4 na bagyo. tapos, break na ng Senado. magbabakasyon daw muna ang mga senador. tapos yung Air France plane na bumagsak, no signs of life pa rin daw pero hopeful pa rin yung families ng mga pasahero, lalo na ng nag-iisang pinoy dun. sabi ng pamilya niya, bilang isang seaman, tiwala raw sila na alam niya kung anong dapat gawin sa mga ganung trahedya. ako rin may tiwala sa kakayahan ng pinoy. survivors ata tayo! at higit sa lahat, naniniwala ako sa power ng prayer. kaya sa lahat ng mga balitang ito, at sa lahat ng mga nangyayari sa paligid naten, ang pinakamabisang pantapat ay ang panalangin. God is alive and He hears us and He knows best. ^_^

ang lamig. sarap matulog. pero pray muna.

good night Philippines! ^_^

fixing me

FIX YOU - COLDPLAY


When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream, down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face and I...

Tears stream, down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face and I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

Today, I heard God singing that song to me. (And me singing, "how sweet it is to be loved by You", to Him. ^_^)

And nothing feels better than knowing that I am loved by no less than God!

I feel good! I feel great! :D

Yesterday, I talked to two people, a leader, and a best friend. And I was so surprised at how he (the best friend) talked, how he uttered every word, how he analyzed things - he's simply amazing. I've never seen him that calm, that serious, and that full of positive energy. Indeed, God knows. And He knows that I need someone like him (the best friend), and so He sent him to me. Before he left, he told me to think about everything, to still ask for God's wisdom, to talk to Him in prayer. I told him that I already know what to do. But he disagreed. Why? Because according to him, he still sees the hurt and the anger in my eyes. Oh, he knows me THAT well.

This morning, I woke up refreshed and renewed. I reached for my In His Steps to look for today's readings.

Here's what I found: Tobit 3:1-11, 16-17 (Prayer of Tobit and Sara's misfortune).

And I am so thankful that the Bible that I have has discussions on the message of the verses. Here's the discussion for the above reading:

On Tobit's prayer:

"He (Tobit) has dedicated his life in faithfulness to God and now finds himself poor, blind, and even insulted by his wife Anna. How does he react? He presents his problem to God without complaining about anyone, not even about his wife.

In the Bible we repeatedly see that God tests us before granting us a special favor. We will really understand when we hear what Christ says to the disciples of Emmaus: "Did not the Messiah have to suffer all this to enter into His glory?" (Luke 24:26).

He is in solidarity with his sinner people and finds it just to be punished, even though he asks to be freed from this punishment.

He feels incapable of fighting alone in life, and asks for death, but leaves everything in God's hands.

His prayer is to ask for strength and the ability to fulfill what God says and demands and not to present to God his own plan and ask Him to realize it, as we often do when we pray."

On Sara's misfortune:

"When we find ourselves in Sara's situation, we immediately blame God.

Sara thinks about her problem and, in thinking, she sees that she must change her mind and must not ask for death. When we look at one isolated event in life, we can despair, but if we look at the whole, we will always find some reason to keep on struggling.

Sara's reason to keep on living is her love for her father and her desire to give him heirs.

Whenever there is despair it is because we look only at one aspect of life as, for example, the economic aspect. Oftentimes, someone who fights for a cause, or a ruler, wants to give up everything because he is being criticized, without looking at all the good he would not accomplish if he quit."

This afternoon, I told Mama that I can look her directly in the eyes and tell her I'm okay. She asked me why. I replied, "because I already know what to do."

With that, I end this post. ^_^

Good night, Philippines! ^_^

1st day of the 6th month..

just a quick summary of my day..

woke up at around 10am.

found myself alone.

talked to God in prayer.

had my brunch.

opened the computer.

searched for an inspiration, something to laugh at, or just anything to read.

applied for a passport online.

updated the infosystem.

made financial report.

checked mail.

submitted articles.

got a message from Sir G telling me that the training will be next week.

got several messages.

replied to some.

got a hug from our angel Sam.

talked to the "sponge" of my life - the only person i could talk to about anything.

took a nap.

had dinner with my brother.

watched One Liter of Tears. (how hard it is for parents to see their children suffer. now i understand why mama and papa feel the way they feel.)

about to sleep in a few minutes with a smile in my heart. ^_^

today is a lovely day. good night Philippines! ^_^