..better in time..

i'm sick again. [sigh]. since last week, i've been suffering minor attacks - stomach and back pain. i simply ignored the uncomfortable feeling. like what i've been telling everyone, i'm getting used to the pain. besides, i remember Arun's words: what you focus on, grows. so if i focus on the pain, i would just feel it all the more. but i guess ignoring what's there doesn't change the fact that it does exist. and it will eventually make its way to get noticed. so did my tummy. for two days now, i've been experiencing extreme pain - that same pain i felt when i was rushed to the hospital more than 2 years ago. but i am able to manage it a little bit better. (i even turned on the PC and did this writing thing. although i must admit, my stomach hurts badly.) at least this time i wasn't brought to the emergency room of a nearby hospital - although mama insisted. err. and she won. we're going to the doctor NOW. =( i hope to continue with this post later. today is the 17th of July. and i wasn't able to go to school because my body won't allow me to. my tummy aches, and so does my back, and my body's on fire. yes, i do have fever, almost influenza (i have running nose and cough too).

back home from the doctor. as expected, i need to take medicines again.

anyway, i'm still happy. why? because although the Fighting Maroons didn't win against the Tamaraws, the Green Archers were victorious over the Tigers. wohoo! Animo La Salle! ^_^ that made me realize, i really am a certified UAAP Basketball fanatic. haha. actually i only cheer for 4 teams: UP, Ateneo, La Salle, and FEU. when it comes to basketball, La Salle and Ateneo are my bets. for some reason, i also cheer for whoever is against UST (although i must admit that Jervy Cruz, Dylan Ababou, and Mike Canlas are really good.). hehe. peace Thomasians. ^_^

not only that, i am also happy because there have been a lot of generous people who willingly shared their blessing. indeed, God provides, and He provides abundantly. melai could hardly believe that she's going with us to Subic for the Metro Manila Conference. but yes, without a doubt, she's coming with us. thanks to the people who allowed God to use them to provide for mel's financial needs. for the nth time, i have applied and have witnessed the power of the ABC's of prayer. Ask. Believe. Claim. my leaders asked me if i could really support mel's MMC needs. they told me that i need to prioritize myself. they know i, too, am struggling. but i told them with confidence that God will provide. in the event that i am not able to raise the necessary funds, i'll know that God has a better plan for mel. but i have asked for His grace, believed that He can provide, and claimed His blessing. and true enough, He did provide. life's like that. simple. i remember Sir Quiwa's words of wisdom: In transforming equations to the form x = F(x), follow this rule - keep it simple! i guess that also applies to life, beauty, prayer, faith, and everything else. a priest once mentioned in his homily, "Jesus showed simplicity in teaching, and that makes Him the best Teacher." [simplicity is beauty, so they say.]

just want to share what happened to me yesterday. i woke up with an aching tummy. but since yesterday was lab day, i needed to go to school. and that's what i did. after class, i had lunch with alpha, then headed to the CFC Center to register mel and ate jinky and also to submit the final list for the workshops. due to the not-so-good weather and the fact that i was not able to get enough rest during the previous days (i've been busy), i went home trembling and burning with fever. but still, i am thankful. because i was able to get home safely. i mean i could have collapsed somewhere, and maybe, no one would come to the rescue (because everyone else is busy minding their own business, leading their own lives.). anyway, i've always known that i need to be independent. and since maturity comes in knowing that no one is ever coming to the rescue, i have already learned to take care of myself, do things on my own, and just don't depend on anyone but God. in his words, bilib daw siya sken. i told him there's nothing amazing about me. he told me that no one can beat me. well, i never competed with anyone, and never will i compete with anyone. if there's someone i need to win over, that's my previous self. i have to beat my own records. i have to be better everyday. but this i know for sure, in times of challenges, i am not just a fighter, i am a survivor!

now my head terribly aches. i better get some rest. [i wonder when i can post this. i wish we'll get DSL connection asap.]

i am nothing without God. with God, i can do anything.