bothered..

i came to school late only to find out that our instructor isn't around.. maybe he's watching the senate hearing too.. haha..

i'm bothered..

bothered at what is happening..

i watched the senate hearing on the ZTE broadband deal.. and it's really alarming.. i admire Mr. Jun Lozada for deciding to do the right thing.. i remember Sir Jim's favorite line: 'a principle is not a principle until it costs you something.'

Mr. Lozada's principle is to do the right thing.. and it costs him his and his family's life.

but i strongly believe that every right thing is worth the risk. because in the end, the truth will always prevail.. and the good shall always overcome evil..

i'm still bothered..

bothered at what i have just done.. there he was telling me why i should smile and some really nice things.. but because i was having a bad mood, i told him 'like you care!'.. of course he was upset.. and so was i.. i realized that i was so mean.. damn mean.. [sigh] but i can't take my words back.. the only thing that i could do is to make sure i won't make the same mistake again..

it's not healthy for me either.. i worried all night and all day.. i guess it's true that the softest pillow is a clear conscience.. and because i did something really bad, i found it hard to sleep last night.. and even harder to go through this day.. it's hard to be bad.. i'm just not used to it..

i resolve to live each day as if it's going to be my last.. and part of living my life to the full is enjoying every moment i spend with the people i love.. i don't have enough time to make up to them.. so i better treat them nice..

[i'm sorry.. that's the last time..]