lessons from asia's story/wake me up when september ends

i'm doing this essay for my ES10 class, sort of an explanation why we left early last meeting.. for the past 8 days of September, life hasn't been that good to me.. as a matter of fact, parang nakakaloko nga eh..i will no longer enumerate those hurtful, disappointing, pathetic situations.. i can't cry hard enough as the song goes..just think of it this way, "when it rains, it pours!" in my case, i wasn't showered with blessings, but with heartaches! i don't know if you know the feeling of being misunderstood..well, that's exactly how i feel right now..i am very much misunderstood.. i really don't know, but life has been throwing scraps on me.. hindi ko alam kung anong gustong ipahiwatig ng mga kalokohang ito..but one thing's for sure, i am at the lowest position that i could get in this life.. as far as the current situation is concerned.. ayoko ng isipin kung ano pang pwedeng mangyari.. wake me up when september ends.. because it seems that there's more.. and i don't know when exactly this would end..

its quite late already, but i'm still awake.. i just finished watching asia's story featured in Magpakailanman.. and i think i like her now more than ever.. i like the way she thinks..well, i really don't like everything about her but she's definitely an inspiration.. dahil na rin siguro sa mga pinagdaanan niya, ang dami niyang lessons na natutunan, especially on love and relationships.. like what she said, you should not give everything you have to your partner unless you're sure that he's already the one you're destined to be with.. may iba-ibang levels of love daw.. and the highest level is true love - when you're already decided to spend the rest of your life with that person..hindi rin daw hinahanap ang pag-ibig.. because true love lies deep in our hearts.. oh well.. matagal ko na ring alam yan.. pero bakit parang wala pa rin akong alam?

hindi ko na alam kung kaya ko pa 'to.. but i believe that everything happens for a reason.. God must have something important to teach me..
for now, ayoko na.. suko na ako.. nakakatawa na.. parang nananadya talaga.. tama na.. hindi ko na kaya..
i've cried more than a thousand drops of tears already.. ilang beses ko na bang sinabi na sawa na ako? ewan..
don't mind me.. this post is just my outlet.. dehins ko na keri to mga dude.. pagod na ako..
"ibuhos na ang beer sa aking lalamunan.. upang malunod na ang puso kong nahihirapan.." -beer, itchyworms
sana lang kaya kong uminom.. kaso amoy pa lang hilo na ako.. kaya dito ko na lang ibubuhos lahat.. dito, malaya ako..

because i own this blog, i could never be misunderstood..

i don't care if nobody understands, i don't care if nobody cares..

just let me write.. please allow me to write..