i missed blogging.. when was my last post? may? i dunno.. i've been busy since classes started last june 13 and i rarely had time for the online stuffs.. but because we're required to post blog entries as part of our thesis, i'll take that opportunity to update my online journals..

for my first post for the month of july, i'd like to share some quotes i recently received from friends.. and i would like to have them categorized as follows:

on love..

*may mga bagay na nakalaan sa tao kahit anong mangyari.. pag para sayo talaga yun, makukuha mo.. kaya wag kang mag-alala kung mawala man siya.. di man kayo ngayon, baka nakalaan siya sayo sa tamang panahon*
>>pwede rin namang may ibang nakalaan sken diba? i'll just wait for him.. anyway, in love pa rin naman ako eh.. sa family ko, sa friends, at higit sa lahat, kay God at sa service.. =)

*somebody asked me.. "are you taken?" i answered, "yes, i'm taken.." then i turned around with tears in my eyes as i whispered.. "taken for granted"*
>>awwww.. ehem, nakakarelate ba ako? hehe.. parang "halaga" lang ng parokya ah.. hay.. di na ako bitter no! kunwari lang nagdadrama.. haha..

*if you're in love but afraid to tell the person for some reason, just think: one moment of embarassment? or a lifetime of regret?*
>>umm, ipaparamdam ko na lang sa kanya that he's special.. bahala na what will happen next.. but definitely hindi ako ang manliligaw.. =D

friendship stuffs ..

*kung malungkot ako at kailangan ko ng isang taong magpapasaya sken, pwede ba kitang puntahan at sabihing "pwede, kahit saglit lang, payakap naman?"*
>>fortunately, i don't need to ask that.. i have super good friends who know when i need a hug.. and they would give it without question.. =)

*when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall into mutually satisfying weirdness.. and call it friendship..*
>>haha! yeah, right!

Godly/spiritual/inspirational..

*"What God wants us to do in our hearts is to love the poor. Worship is meaningful only if one hand is up in the air worshipping God and the other hand holding a piece of bread for the poor. GK (Gawad Kalinga) is God's work, and I am very privileged to be part of this." - Bo Sanchez*
>>enough said.

*life's pretty simple.. when you're asking for apples and life hands you lemons, make lemonade. if you're on your way out and it starts to rain, at least you won't have to water the plants anymore. it's a matter of seeing things in perspective. the benefits may not be immediate nor obvious, but you have to know this for sure: God will never give you anything you can't handle, nothing you can't triumph over.. there will be problems, there will be struggles.. but if they're not there, how would you know how strong you are?*
>>TRUE!

life, hurt, and some more..

*psychology speaks: "it's not what people do to us that hurts us. in the most fundamental sense, it's our chosen response to what they do to us that hurts us."*
>>yeah, i guess i can agree to this..

*i met him at the time when i really needed someone to help me overcome the pain i was feeling.. he stood by me all along.. then after all that happened, i suddenly thought of this: he helped me forget my sad story.. and yet, he started another one..*
>>ehem.. sapul na naman ba ako? parang si peter pan ba 'to? haha.. hay.. hindi naman ako sad ah..maybe i'm just missing him.. c'mon! haha.. tamang drama ka unaiza.. tama na yan! thesis mode ka na dapat.. =D wala lang.. syempre naisip ko na si peter pan.. i was reading his text messages a while ago and na-realize ko, sya nga talaga si peter pan ko.. kaso lang hindi ako si wendy.. pero ok lang.. ayoko na nga.. thesis mode na uli.. hehe..

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next topic: action speaks louder than words..

i realized recently that indeed, it's not important how many times you say 'i love you' to someone you love , and it really doesn't matter how sweetly you deliver that line.. what's more essential is that you do concrete actions to prove the sincerity of your words..

it goes the same for your dreams, and for everything else in life.. don't just say something, DO IT!

why and how did i come about this realization? blame him.. he was responsible for it.. and honestly, i thank him for that..

he could hardly believe that i've moved on and have finally let go.. but it all started with him.. he was the one who told me to find my new charger.. he doesn't want me to depend on him anymore.. and that's just what i did! but now that i'm finally healed, he was like "how did you that?".. at eto pa, nawindang talaga ako.. sa kanya daw ang salita, sken ang gawa.. in other words, hanggang salita lang siya.. at sinabi pa niyang hindi daw niya ata kayang gawin yung ginawa ko.. ngayon lang naging clear sken ang lahat.. yes, hanggang salita nga lang talaga siya.. and even in loving, hanggang dun lang ang kaya niya.. somehow, natuwa ako kasi at least i know for myself na kaya kong magmahal nang totoo.. i just don't say 'i love you'..pinapakita ko rin sa gawa..

haha.. hindi po kita inaaway, kung sino ka man.. pero salamat.. because of you, mas lalo kong naintindihan ang ibig sabihin ng 'pagmamahal'.. sana in God's time, matutunan mo rin yun..

that will be all .. hanggang sa muling pagdaldal.. goodluck sa lahat ng thesis mode din ngayon.. God bless everyone! =)

broken.. no more..

~*Those who thank God even in trials turn burden into blessings. So keep your faith close to your heart and God shall provide the comfort you need.*~

kung gaano ako kabadtrip kahapon, ganun na lang ako kasaya ngayon.. haha!

yeah, i'm happy.. i guess i woke up on the right side of the bed.. =D

para malaman nyo kung gano ako kabadtrip kahapon, here's an excerpt of what i've written para sana sa blog ko..

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i hate this day.. nothing went right.. well, it's good that i was able to finish my task and that i'm done with the testing, but still, in general, i didn't have a good day..

i arrived two minutes late for the 8-5 shift so i have to be in the office until 6pm if i want to get the full daily allowance.. and yes, i chose to stay.. that money would mean a lot ,i swear! and i can't just take it for granted..

hell is listening to emo songs.. i hate emo but i love secondhand serenade, i love dashboard, i love dishwalla.. true enough, there's a certain pleasure in pain.. and now that i'm hearing that damn "every little thing" by dishwalla, it makes me feel broken, depressed, sad.. but at the same time, hopeful.. hopeful that someday, someone would sing me that song.. 'wish i could be every little thing you wanted..' and hell again, lifehouse! ...'you're all i want, you're all i need.. everything, everything..'

yeah, chai's right.. i can't move on by listening to these darn emo songs.. to hell with emo! but how can i ever stop myself from loving them? all i've been wanting to hear is emo..
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see? obvious naman sigurong yesterday was a bad day for me.. hindi lang yun, nasira pa PC ko.. for some reason, bigla na lang siyang namamatay.. grabe talaga.. at dahil 6pm na ako umuwi, mahirap ng sumakay, traffic pa.. past 7 na ako nakarating sa bahay.. at hindi pa good news ang sumalubong sken.. at may natanggap pa akong text message na lalong nagpainit sa ulo ko.. i swear, nakakarindi talaga.. sa lahat kasi ng ayaw ko e yung sasabihin mo sken kung anong dapat kong maramdaman.. utang na loob naman, pati ba naman emotions ko pakikialaman pa.. err.. i don't wanna talk about it anymore.. mga walang kwentang bagay..

anyway, change topic..

so, why am i happy?

una sa lahat, ngayong araw lang ako nagising na walang new message sa phone ko.. masaya ba yun? hehe.. well, actually sad kasi walang nakaalala sken pero ok lang.. =)

i started the day right.. syempre prayer muna.. well, ganun naman ako everyday.. ewan ko ba, di talaga maiwasan ang mga hindi magagandang araw..

at ano nga bang nangyari? well, hindi ako matagal na naghintay ng masasakyan kanina.. buti na lang mapalad ako ngayong araw.. at umabot pa ako sa 8-5 na shift.. ibig sabihin, makakauwi ako ng 5pm mamaya..yey! yun pa lang, masaya na ako e..

pagdating ko rito, sira pa rin ang pc ko..so i had to report it to zer, our supervisor, who called the attention of the tech support..

after x minutes, kuya jojo arrived..

ayun, may ilang bagay siyang ginawa at ayun nga, na-experience nya rin ang topak ng pc ko..

after a while, he decided to restore the system..

good thing it worked.. and now, ok na uli PC ko.. yey! =)

that's the first good thing.. what's next? well, wala lang naman, nakatxt ko lang naman ang isa sa mga taong super miss ko na.. si ruthie! grabe, sa wakas, nag-abot din kame ng sis kong yun..

syempre chikka galore.. kaso lang nasa byahe sya and i had to do something na rin kaya natigil na kme.. later na lang uli.. =)

yeah, when it rains, it pours tlaga.. kahapon, inulan ako ng mga hindi kanais-nais na pangyayari, pero ngayon, good things naman ang bumubuhos.. hay.. i guess that's just the way life goes..

another good news: i'm done with almost everything.. actually, with everything.. =)

done with the setup, testing, queries, unistats.. ok na lahat.. kaya for the rest of the day, eto lang ang gagawin ko.. dumaldal sa blog..

for the meantime, eto na muna, later na lang uli.. lunch muna ako.. =)

God bless everyone!

it's so nice to be happy.. =D

current song playing on my mind: "I'll worship at Your throne, whisper my own love song.. with all my heart I'll sing, for You my Dad and King.. I'll live for all my days, to put a smile on Your face.. and when we finally meet, it'll be for eternity.."